Ergh… I am dreaming a lot lately again. It is so wierd.

Last nights first dream was me in a food competition. I find I am dreaming a lot about cooking and food competitions. Last night I had to make a vegetarian dish and I was struggling with each of the factors of a properly plated dish. There is a requirment for protein, starch, and fat that need to be represented on the plate. My first problem in the dream was the starch… I was trying to figure out if the veg Jicama would work. After I got passed that I was struggling for my vegetarian starch. I knew beans and/or lentils were good but this lasted for a couple hours of restless tossing and turning.

The night before last I had a simalar struggle. I dreamed I had to produce a meal using only chicken stock. That was IT! oi vay…

But that was not all, I had a few dreams last night and I could recall everyone of them an hour ago. Suddenly I am blank on the others. Odly enough they were just as odd.

Otherwise things have been okay here. I am stressing over a few things and I talked to Adolfo about it. I suggested we both write down all the things that are on our minds and free ourselves a bit.

Usually, Money is the only thing that can really distress me. At least I finally got the whole school issue under control, but there are things brewing to change that. I have the chance of going to another school for a few months outside the country and THAT is stressing Adolfo and thus me.

I am on a school break this week, then back to classes next week. GOD I cannot wait to be finished at AILV… Chef Hoffmeister is a good man but this school is for the birds. Unless a reputation devlops no one will know what a zoo this place is. Most of his teachers are absolute freaks, but what are you going to do about it?

6 months to go of school unless I get the externship in Singapore; which means I would be there for 3 to 6 months max. SO, don’t ask me about it. I mean don’t ask me everytime we talk what is happening with it… because as soon as the Singapore thing happens or doesn’t happen then I will let people know.

I need to write more often here… but then again I am uncertain ANYONE IS LISTENING????

In my previous update I forgot to mention that we had a lot of visist from family in that time. Not on Adolfo’s family… as I think I mentioned… but also my cuzin and her handsome hubby were here for dinner. I was thrilled when I found out Raechel was in town and I made them a super nice dinner.

I have finals next week and I am a little stressed over it. Just one major project due and then a single week off. I am also trying to get my portfolio together for www.halonet.net …..

Lot’s of plans going on, and I need mailing addresses for people, too. Big party planned for the end of March. E-Mail me at scotters1964@hotmail.com ….

Scott

Oh it has been a while since I wrote. I have been busy and lazy at the same time. So here is a quick review:

Adolfo and I went through a big fight in the middle of August following when his family left. He spent days being as nice as pie, but in the week that followed he transformed into Satan and I really had a hard time with him. We very nearly broke up.

One day he went to work and I put all of his stuff in the second bedroom and moved my office into the master bedroom. When he got hom he cleaned ALL of his stuff from the apartment and locked it into the second bedroom and it stayed like this for a couple days. Well, eventually we sewed things back together and we have had very little issues since then.

I quit my job at Sur La Table at the end of August. I wanted to put a gun in my mouth rathe than show up there dealing with ALL THE FUCKING DRAMA in that place. The manager of the store is a sloppy, stupid cow with the managerial capacity of a teenage girl. ARGH! Oh, how I could go on with the disgusting behaviors there! I digress….

I took a “on Call” position with the Venetian’s Banquet department that started 9/4. I worked for a week, but am waiting for a call back. I think I made a good impression on them and hope they will use me again. It was an excellent experience.

Ed and TVD came to Las vegas and we had dinner together a Caluccios next to the Libaraci Museum. Stay away from that place. Oh my God the service was sooooooooo terrible and the manager was an asshole. The food was decent, but the wait staff does not know what is on the plate. As cheap as the food is, they cut corners so badly that the food is marginal at best.

It was GREAT being with the guys. They had a pal Georgia who ate with us and she is a showgirl with the Penn&Teller show as well as Jubaliee. She knew a lot of people who I also knew or knew of which was really cool. What a fun girl!

So now I am trying to get caught up on all the things I let drop over the last month because I was too busy! I want to take Adolfo out for a romantic dinner tonight but I fear the money is not all there. I also just got an e-mail from United Airlines for an excellent special for a Dinsey package to Orlando I want so bad I can taste it!

Well… there ya go… that’s the update. Right now Adolfo and I are trying to decide what we plan on doing together in the next year. Move to Boston? Seattle? Somewhere else? When? Right away? April 2004? When?

Oh my goodness… what will I do?

Money emergency just made it… I ended up borrowing some money from someone I knew aho was kind enough to trust me. Otherwise we are making it okay.

I also had a wierd dream the other day and I still wonder about it. I was in my room and it had a large window overlooking a school yard. I could see a spout of oil coming out of the ground in the distance and feeling concerend about it being there with all these kids running around. The school yard was full of them. Then, somhow the oil ignited and all the kids ran away… no one got hurt. But the fire kept burning and burning in the school yard. I was sitting on the bed, sad about it, when Sophia Loren appeared at my window and was looking in at me smiling like the Madonna…. WHAT WAS THAT????

Anyway, I have been having problems with Adolfo ever since his family left here. He has been an absolute bitch. I am starting to get really sick of it.

Things are really tense right now. Stressing over money. Rent is hanging in the balance and it feels like it is driving a wedge between Adolfo and I.

On the other hand, I lost 11 lbs and am working on the other 30. Argh!

Life is very busy… so much so that I am not keeping up with everything very well. It does not help when (on occasion) I waste time. School is going well, but I have another instructor who is tripping me out. I have to wonder if it is me or these teachers that Chef Hoffmeister is hiring.

Chef McBride is his name… he seems way way too fixated on me and reacts to me in strange ways. If he is attracted to me or replused by me I am not sure. Either way, he pays too much attention to me in completely unproductive ways! Ergh!

Adolfo’s mom and neice have been staying with us for a week. His brother, sister in law, and cousin were here for the previous weekend. This weekend his sister, another neice, nephew and some guy who is a family freind are here to shop and hang out. I just found out that everyone is leaving Sunday.

Anyway, I have to run. Trying to get my FAT ass to the gym and then am off to work until 11 pm tonight.

Later Tater!

Yesterday was also very busy and my stress level is breaking heart-attack range right now. Neither of us make enough money to support our lives right now. Once in a blue moon we get into a finanancial pinch and here we are again! I have an electric bill demanding attention, cable, and then rent… not in that order. Chronologically speaking, power is the most immediate since they sent us a new love letter saying I should open it immediately.

What am I gunna do. I have 14 days to generate enough money to cover bills. Not impossible… stranger things have happened. Usually they do, but not to linger over this subject too long… who knows. Feels free to contribute by hitting the HOME link and using my PAYPAL link provided… yeah right.

You know I can see through my stats who is visiting me. I am not getting a lot of people it seems. I can see that I may be my biggest fan because I have popped into my own site to make sure certain pages were reading correctly. Next is Rochester Road Runner cable… i.e. my pal Ian. I also looks like someone in Las Vegas is checking me out, too. University Nevada Medical Center is also making visits… welcome!

Maybe it is the phychiatric ward?

I was busy all day yesterday with a early morning wake-up to take Adolfo to work, then I made a cake for a dinenr party. Then I was ff to work in a dash and spent the day there. At 6 I went to the dinner party and stayed til almost 10, then we went to the pool for a while. It was nice… it was an okay day afterall.

Adolfo is vacuuming and I am not doing my homework… shame on me. Anyway… I need to fly. Happy day y’all!

I had a busy day yesterday and I was gone from 8 in the morning to 10:30 at night. School all morning, then off to the gym, and completed my day at Sur La Table. It was a very busy day, but the thing is I like that. I like being busy like that.

I also have been listening to Linkoln Park so much I am hearing the music in my head when I am not listening to it. I turn it up quite loud in the truck and feel really intrigued with the lyrics when I am driving around.

Wierd though… I have this idea that no one could possibly know what a big fag I am when I drive around and listen to this stuff. I like being perceived at “straight”. Some girls were checking me out the other day and I was laughing so hard on the inside. ha ha ha!

Adolfo has been mad at me for a few days. He occasionally tried putting the frustration aside from me so we can relax… I cannot be open about the wource of the argument… but this one is ALL MY FAULT and this sucks. I can be such an idiot some times. No… I did nto cheat on him. Get over it.

Anyway… I have to work all night tonight. I’ll be there til 11 at Sur La Table. Bored out of my head! My mind slowly diminishing to dust. My drive for life crushed under the wheels of …. dramatic, huh? Anyway… talk soon.

I logged onto chat today and almost everyone is gone? Where is everyone? No Allan? No Brian? No Chippy? No Ian?

Adolfo had a mood swing last night. He left me a note and was gone before I got up this morning… in the note he said nice things. I am working and schooling the whole freeking day so I will not be home til after 10 tonight.

I bought Jack Danials Hard Cola last night… YUM!

Lately there has been a couple issues about my diary. I am wondering of having it is becoming a detriment. This has been used against me or against us lately in a couple ways. Not thrilled with that. Is there a danger to putting out too much personal information?

oh hell… anyway… off to school

Day#3 at school. Week is going well. Nothing to bitch about. It’s been a busy week and I am enjoying being busy. Sucks that I am not at a 100%. I feel bloated. I feel bored with my Job. I took my resume into Chef Hoffmeister for his review and I will hopefully get some good feedback from him.

Anyway, Adolfo made another great dinner tonight. He is soooooooooooo talented. He is soooo good at making saute’s.

Ilove him so much. We have been talking a lot lately about us and where we are going… it’s been good. We are thinking about getting married. If this happens I will send out announcments!