Ugh… sick day was used well, but I found out today my schedule was changed this week and I am off tomorrow. Ugh… well, I will try and use the time well.
Look at this guy! He’s naked, so do not freak out, but he is UNREAL looking.. and not in a good way. I saw this and HAD to share. Oh my GOD!
Anyway, do any of you have a profile on gay.com? Let me know and let’s connect and chat.
I took a sick day today and started working on a couple projects. One is my uncle’s web site. www.edwardeggman.com …. it’s just a static site and I will be adding more to it over time. I am hoping it will blossum into something really cool!
Time will tell, huh? If you like his art let me know and let him know. Some of his pieces really are cool looking. My favorites are “The Authority” and “Mrs. Crawford”.
More sites coming soon, including one for my dad… Holy COW!
All is well in Sin City. I got a new cell phone today, which I have been lamenting over for the last few months. I am excited, though I did not get an expensive model. All I needed was some of the basics anyway, though I am having trouble figuring out the menus on this tech.
My move to Seattle was canceled as it was originally planned, but after canceling our original plans I was being wooooo’d by the guys up there to help open their restaurantants, but that seems to have fizzled away. They told me today in voice mail that they are looking at someone locally, which I can understand.
I was nervous about the big change, but excited at the same time. It was something that could have been a new platform for me and a doorway into Seattle. Seattle appealed to me because there was, what I perceived, a culture there of people I really liked. Not to mention the absolutely beautiful landscape.
I still dream of moving up there and though we decided to wait a year, maybe the future will be brighter as a result? I still want to buy, but I have some financial issues I need to rsolve first. So does Adolfo. BUT, we can work together.
Well, I am annoyed when people ask me certain questions. I know some people mean well and they do not mean to be annoying.
Get over it. I want to move out of Las Vegas because this place is souless and I do not like life here. I like some people and some things here.
Why did I stop going to school? Well, CEI is worth the investment, but it is so demanding I do not have time for real life and I was getting tired. There are no breaks! When am I gunna take the tests for the certs I am studying for? Beside that most of the classroom time is a regurdgitation of the book. I can read.
So, now what?
I am working on financial stuff and if all works out Adolfo and I will save to buy a house. So there. I am never done, tigers.
So, I am at the gym today and there is this guy… just kidding. I am constantly running out of time and getting nothing out of it. I believe I have also decided to stay in Vegas a little longer. Looks like we will be here another year. Another long long long long year.
Mom will be happy. Adolfo will be relieved. Tom will stare blankly at me.
Anyway, I am working on a lot of things and I hope they are seeds that begin bearing fruit.
I have been dieting, btw, and thought I was losing weight. BUT, Friday night turned into a giant pig-out with movie popcorn and a pizza. Kaidy was visiting and we all went to the movies asn asaw Constantine. Oh my God… it was great.
So, I am at the gym today and there is this guy that I think will pretty much make a move on anyone or anything. He is a latino guy, about mid-forties or so, and was probably quite good looking once. Now, he looks a little pathetic and desperate. I thought to myself, this guy is “damaged goods”. Then I paused… I thought that his build really was not THAT far from my own. I gained some weight, I lost some of my finer looks, I am a daisy that has wilted a bit from loss of the sun.
So, I then asked myself… Do I judge and despise in others what I see in myself? Is this perception of him merely a mirror shining back to me?
I know, it’s a little over thought out. But, really I have to ask myself and wonder WHY I have not lost the 30 pounds. I know I can be a considerably good-looking guy. I’m not messaging my ID or anything (look it up if confused).
I hate being overweight. When Brian came to L.A. and visited me I remember the look on his face when he saw me for the first time in more than a year since I left Boston. I was 20#’s heavier and he was shocked. I have been bitching, moaning, groaning, and moping over this for too long.
Well, let’s see if something happens. It is a time for change…
Seattle is getting closer and I keep second guessing myself. I am panicking. I am freaking out. I am shaking inside. I am braver than this!!!!!
I decided to complete school this week… for now. I took a lot of classes that can take me up to a certain level of MicrSoft certs, but in the end I do not know if/how/when I will use it except for my own good at this time. I keep seeing a different future for me and it keeps coming back to cooking… oddly enough. Well, Culinary Mngt anyway.
Well, I am gunna be bizzy for the next couple days so I will update soon!
xo Scott
p.s. – I am on gay.com as “scotters” so look me up.
Been busy here as usual… we had guests visiting from L.A. and NYC over the last two weeks who hung out even though we were barely home.
Kaidy was here and he really clicked with Adolfo… which I was surprised about. Adolfo tends to be jelous and bitchy toward people with whom I have a past. Although, Kaidy charmed the heck out him… yeah!
Chippy was here from NYC and it was a frustrating start for both of us. He lost his cell on the subway on the way to the airport. That meant we had no way of communicating directly… argh. BUT, when we talked I found him to be an interesting soul. He is spiritual and unbound in many ways. He also inspired me to do more running like I used to do ‘back in the day’ when I was much thinner… oi vay.
I am planning Adolfo’s birthday party on the 16th; dinner party at a nice Italian restaurant with friends. I got him a p-coat and a watch. I am making him a cake: white sponge style cake with chambord soak, raspberry cheesecake filling, and an Italian meringue icing. Sound good??? I’ll post pics soon (after the event). We’re going to Green Valley Ranch and I expect it waill be a lot of fun!
I know I said this before, but we gave notice yesterday that we are moving to our management company. Yes… Seattle is still the favorite location. I should be securing a new place to live this week. Now, we have to find jobs! I know they are out there…
I am leaving school next week too to work on some new goals for us. We have committed to getting our finances in shape and have printout from ConsumerInfo.com (Free Credit Report.Com) of all our credit reports and are stunned by it all. Ugh! The ultimate goal is to buy a house by the end of 2005 or the beginning of 2006 outside of Seattle. (sigh)
Anyway, sorry it has been so long since I posted updates! More to come! Scott
So, this has been a goofy week. Kaidy came in from L.A. and stayed with us a few days. He is a sweetheart!!!! He has never met Adolfo before and they got on very well. Kaidy and I were “involved” in back in the day and Adolfo handled all that well enough.
Another couple we know… long time freinds of Adolfo… may have split. I like both of them, so it is hard to feel more for one over the other. Well,I hope no matter that happens they will both be happy in the end.
I have also been working on our finances. I printed out our credit reports from consumerinfo.com (freecreditreport.com)… my report was 19 pages long. Holy crap! Yet, I have a lot of work ahead of me with that. Adolfo’s was half the size of mine… ugh.
Talk soon!
I am up too late again tonight working on one of my “projects”. I am frustrated because I am discovering a lack of information… ugh. BUT… since tomorrow is my Friday at work I need to drag my tired ass to bed. I also have school tomorrow night… ugh again.
Well, that was deep. Ugh… jay Leno just appeared on the tv… I ned to GO!