I have started working 0n the new 2006 version of UrielsLantern and expect all you to come and visit frequently!!!!!! This one will be a lot different than my previous attemtps. I hope to make this one more entertaining and draw ya’ll back more often.

So many people have lost interest in the doldrums of me. Gary, Terry, Ian, and Chippy never come and read me anymore. Pwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!! Ozzie Georgie, Boston Ricky, Chicago Brian all blew my bitch-ass off like I was nobody!

Pwaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Can you tell how bored I am… anyway. Tomorrow is Halloweenie day and I have no plans expcet to work. We will give some candy to some of the neighbor kids before we go to work and that is about it. Ugh…

Love ya!

It’s almost time for me to go home from work and I want to make this quick entry. Tonight I was talking to the one of the Chef’s in the hot kitchen to discover he was there with some of the biggest Chef’s in the US. So, I rushed down and walked through.

Two feet away from me was Roy Yamaguchi, Mario Batali, and Emeril Lagasse. Charlie Trotter and many many many many more… I was lost! I was in awe. I was giddy. I wanted to cry because I would have immedaitely taken off my shirt and climbed into a Chef’s jacket without hesitation to be among them given the chance…. I was playing hookie from work.

I really wanted to cry. FUCK!

Last night Adolfo and I went to the birthday party for a little girl who turned 3. Well, it was her Las Vegas party because she was visiting her Gram’n’Grampa who are our neighbor. It was an all adult gathering…she was absolutely adorable.

Then we sat at home and watched t.v. for the rest of the evening. Joy…. God we’re boring.

Did I not tell you this would be an uneventful weekend? Well, I did very little including some of the important things I could have been doing. I am such a slacker.

Yesterday I took Adolfo to the Dentist. We have a new dentist now and I got my teeth cleaned. It is amazing how much SHIT comes out of a person’s mouth! Chunks! Boulders! A complete hillside. Well, the doctor was cool and he lectured us both about taking care of the teeths… I need to floss more. I have some kind of gum problem that Adolfo has too, so were both on meds twice a day for a week to clear it up. Some kind of bacterial infection… blah blah blah.

Makes you want to kiss me, huh?

It also answered a problem I was having my two of my lower front teeth. Seems I thought they were compressing against each other and getting worse over time. True, but it was all plaque. ewwwww! Now it’s all good!

We go back in two weeks for some more work and we are looking forward to it. Yes, I am actually looking forward to getting back to the dentist. Let’s see how long this lasts.

Anyway, I am looking foward to the coming weeks. The winds of change are shifting…. xox2

Whatta week… odly enough it seems like the whole thing as smoked by. I am looking forward to this weekend for the most part, just a chill-fest until Wednesday. Why? I have my first dental appointment in years!

There is a guy who uses lasers instead of needles or drills which really got my attention. I really have a deep phobia of dentists and I finally get to see one.

If I can talk Thursday… or if I can type on Thursday I will post a follow up and tell you all how it went. Should be interesting… i made the appointment today and and started extra flossing right away!

Cheers for now my lovlies. S

Given last night’s post, I was very driven by a conviction that burned inside of me to relate the death of those two guys even though it happened way back in July. It kills me that I heard nothing through the media about it.

On other subjects… I started reading this book I bought off of Amazon. It combines two things I love which is food and Ancient Rome. The book demonstrates recipes going back to the days before Caesar.

Steven Saylor recommends this in the back of his last book where he talks about the history and the people involved in some of this stories. I have been reading Steven’s books for YEARS and he occasionally discusses the food his characters are eating and I am fascinated by the dishes he discusses.

Keep in mind, his books contain real historical characters in a way that helps you learn more about the period of history they are all in.

One of the principles that comes back over and over is Cicero, which is the famous lawyer as seen in several films featuring the death of Caesar. It includes the rise of Caesar and in the previous book “Judgment of Caesar” you are smack in the middle of the whole death of General Pomeii, Cleopatra’s fight with Ptolemy and the tomb of Alexander the Great!

The stories are all mysteries. The Investigator is Gordianus (at the time he was called a Finder though he is the fictional figure in all this). Amazon has all the books and from start to finish they are all worth reading. You see his family grow, mature, and Gordianus age. You see the single greatest period of history come alive. What I like a lot is the sense of humor Gordianus has!

The fact that Steven is a hottie and comes across (in e-mail) as such a nice guy is just too good! Get these books and hopefully we’ll see a lot more books from Steven!!!!!!!

I actually went to Rome at stood at the edge of Circus Maximus, wandered INSIDE the Coliseum, and stood on a dirt road outside of a building with an Egyptian pyramid that in all liklihood any and all of histories most famous people once stood! After reading these book, after marveling at some of the movies made (like Gladiator), I felt an even stronger connection to that point in history. I gotta get back there!!!!!!!!

Cheers!

I have been reading other blogs and I think it would only do us good to share these with other people. As screwed up and dull as 75% seem to be, there are some genuine idiot sevants out there writing some interesting junk. I included some in previous blogs; like Anonymous Lawyer for example and the music web site I found which was way cool.

I also found some troubling web sites that talk about politcs and gay issues… I was literally wrecked for a week because one of them published 2 18 year old guys who were arrested, torchured, and then hung for one reason; they were gay. The pictures were on the Blog and I could perceive form the pics 1 (story1, Story 2, Story 3, Their Names, ) that out of the two guys 1 had given up and let himself hang to death while the other – dangling from the rope – seemed to be fighting to live. These were still pics and it strikes home for many reasons.

1. The world is a cruel cruel place and we humans are absolute monsters to each other.
2. The freedoms I have come to take for granted are as solid as paper mache and it is getting worse with conservative’s and religiouos figures in government.
3. That all we know about God and faith is a big lie; that this world is brimming with evil and much of it as it has been in the last 2000 years is still done in the name of God. It’s the worst hypicracy…

I thought I would wish that the entire Middle East were destroyed when I saw that image, but that would be wrong too. I initially wanted to see that entire part of the world, the Muslim Faith destroyed… I would burn every Koran I could find… but that would be wrong.

This world has God and Faith in order to bring people together. This world is getting smaller by technology and population yet were are getting further divided. We disconnect by titles and lables and personal greed, vanity, and lust… we are killing ourselves.

I hope we have a lot more major disasters and plagues so we can start appreciateing what we have a little more. We have lost faith. We have no God. We are alone.

I had a nice weekend, as it were, still working on a lot of life stuff and making plans for the future. I had the chance to chat with a couple of people briefly including Chippy who will be visiting in a couple months for the Las Vegas Marathon. He is running like 4 or 5 major running races in the span of like 4 months. Whatta NUT!

My own running has been going well, though I am not losing any weight. I am strong. I can always do better. I will get better as I go forward.

I made dinner last night and it was sorta icky. Not bad, but I was very unhappy. Many of my staples were gone and things I thought I had were already thrown out. ARGH! I did make a decent carrot soup and a pork chop loin with a quickie white wine sauce that I thought tasted okay. The wine I made it from was one of the best Chardonnay’s I ever had.

No other news of any signicance. I said I was looking to the future and think things are going to begin changing whether I initiate them or not. It’s already starting to swirl around me like Wilma is in the Yucatan Peninsula!

I feel the new Tsunami coming, it is change. I like change, but I do not like when I get run over by it. Change is good as long as you’re open to it. Adolfo is very closed to change… I know this and I try and make change as easy as I can for him.

Change is good. I talked to Brian on-line the other day. He and his BF have bought a gorgous condo in Chicago!!!! It is gorgeous… but I think their winter gas bill is going to be hell. Anyway, Brian is thrilled and I am happy for him as well.

I bought new shoes today… I decided I needed some new shoes. I got them from Ken Cole as usual! I think Adolof will be less than happy I spent more money on clothes. He is doing really well in his job! I am amazed… so I told him I am going to quit my job and he is goign to support me. He didn’t laugh.

Today is my Friday… I leave here in just over 1 1/2 hours and am not lookign back. Thursday is my boss’ last day and I get a new one… ugh! I was just getting used to the one I had… I was really starting to like her. I guess it will only make my decision to move on easier when that happens??? Not that the new one is bad or anything, I just don’t know her.

I do need a change. I started thinking of where I could go and began realizing I am very nervous about making the change. I looked at a caterer in Providence and was impressed by their web site http://atomiccatering.com/home.asp …. they produce some beautiful stuff.

So, Brian told me he saw in the Blog that I was thinking of moving to Chicago. I told him “Didn’t mean to scare you” and though I could not hear the tone of his voice I imagine he was white as a sheet. Shaking… twitching at the idea. Ha ha ha….

I have a lot of family near Chicago and it would be cool to reconnect. Most of us stay in touch via e-mail and that is a good thing. I miss my cuz in Colorado! She is the coolest! My uncle in Tusla rocks!

Okay, I am just talking about anything at this point so I will flee. Cheers ALL!!!!

Do you ever obsess over stuff? I sometimes get an idea in my head and virtually nothing will change my mind. If it is a food thing someone once told me “you have to satisfy the craving to get rid of it” and thus … my weight gain???? If it is something stupid like “I have to go to the gym or go to that place or whatever…” and I get there and I am bored or disapointed…. ugh!

Over the last couple days I have been obsessing over dumb stuff and I am not in a position to satisfy this impulse and it is making me nervous. I am impulsive and compulsive on many issues. But, I find myself unable to act on somethings because of the structure life has around me right now.

Is this too vague? Tough shit, some will understand and some will not.

This can apply to other things, like my move to Seattle a few months ago. I am thinking about the move again and find myself in a state of dismay that I could be walking into something that is out of my league, but I imagine I can definitly overcome anything.

What worries me is that I am jumping into a bad space, but secretly I know everything will be okay. IF I were on my own I know I would be okay, but my darling Adolfo has a tendency to point out the negetive parts of stuff so I just keep it to myself for the most part. Ugh…

Look at me kvetching again!

So, on other news. There is no real other news. I am sure I will get some tomorrow. Tomorrow is my Friday though it is Monday. Confused yet?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GARY