I just took Adolfo home following a dinner at the MGM with our favorite waitress anmed Paula. She works in the MGM Buffett (except Wednesday and Thursday) as a waitress and is a way cool chick from El Salvadore. [Ask for her when you go] ….

Anyway, we are still growing in many ways and there are times when we are together and it is difficult. I hate when he gets quiet and it makes me nuts, almost feeling like I am being excluded in a way. I get insecure in some ways and some people have excused me of being a little overly sensative. I suppose it is true, but I rely on my witts and sometimes I am completely without them. In my relationship with Adolfo being sensative is a blessing and a curse. The thing is as soon as something is inhis head that bothers him, not matter how insignificant, I can feel it.

He gave me a card tonight that was very loving and sweet. It looks like we are headed for an alter somewhere… ya know. Our relationship is blossuming and I cry like a baby knowing that this person has so much power over making me happy and miserable at the same time.

Urgh… I am on my second cocktail and will be heading to bed. I have a bizzy day with school tomorrow in the morning and then have some work with the business plan in the afternoon. Jeffy-Jeff in L.A. is a god in my book!

I got a few nice comments back about the ring. So far so good as it goes. I am glad I have Adolfo in my life and I hope he feels the same in return. I am sure he does, though with me he has to put up with a lot. With us talking about living together, we have been faced with stresses and attitudes… it has been good in ways with our changes coming together instead of driving us apart.

Money is always my big issue! I re-did my reume again and am writing it more for Culinary though I would love to do training again right now. If I could get a gig like I had at MASH Village I could still work a second job and continue with school. Alas, who knows if that will happen again?

This week has been un eventful. I think I want to have a party and invite people from school, work, and some of Adolfo’s freinds. Wanna come over and munch out? Alas, I am off to bed soon. Adolfo is already there… good night.

Okay, there it is… this is the ring I got for Adolfo and gave it to him on Saturday. I have been sitting on it for a little while and finally decided to spring it on him. Adolfo seemed genuinely thrilled to have received it and has show it to some of his family and freinds already. I think he is happy.

Anyway, I am going to write more some time soon. I am feeling sleepy right now and will be home tomorrow evening. Hopefully I will have the energy to focus on this stuff and let ya’ll know my stresses. I have some new self-destructive thoughts and got overwhelmed this weekend by them. oi… Kisses… Scott

Almost time for bed. I am so sleepy. Nothing new to report except that I got an e-mail from my traveling companion who was very sweet and understanding about a lot of stuff… goodnight all

I’m home. Adolfo had a lovely dinner waiting for me when I got in and we ate… went to bad… and then… he he he! RIGHT ON BABY!

The trip home was painfully awful! In Denpasar (Bali, Indonesia) we were searched with a fairly normal routine. Changing planes in Taipei (Taiwan) we were searched again through a little more intense… had to take off shoes and check through bags blah blah blah. Then coming into the US we ran into mega-bitch and she decided that she was going to search everything thoroughly! This cunt-hole acted after my traveling companion told me we had to hurry to get to my connecting flight. She peeled though all of his stuff after asking stupid, asshole questions. Thank goodness a male attendant came forward who went though my things and was willing to expidite us on our way. So off we go to connect to my United flight and there is another infected cunt-whole running things there who says I had no choice but to wait in some long line and refused to give me any assistance to make my flight. FUCK THEM I thought and I managed to get onto another airline. Again, searched before getting in the door! ARGH I am sick of this over the top security bullshit.

I see and hear so many people agreeing to this like sheep because they “think” that the government is doing a good thing. How much security is needed? Now, that is a question no one can answer because there is a genuine threat out there. But, who are they stopping and questioning? Pasty faced average people while turbine heads cruise through security? I looked at the people they were stopping in Customs and these had to have been the most vanilla people on the planet. It’s easy to pick people that won’t posses any problem, and what security is really being inforced. Where does it become harrassment versus safety?

Turns me off from wanting to travel at all I tell you! Because of the airlines already treat people like shit, the government treats people like drones, and services are gradually vanishing. It costs too damn much to travel or trust an airline to stay in business and honor their mileage programs. Interesting in my travels especially with a company like national Airlines the inconvenience is always on the passenger. I do not think I have flow National once where they have been on time.

I bitch too much, but I would rather speak out then cow like so many people do. I was treated so poorly by ailines and security yesterday that I am soured on traveling all together. Perhaps there was an unusual security threat yesterday? Perhaps there were things going on that I did not know? Perhaps terrorits wear khaki pants by Dickies and I did not know? On the other hand, maybe Karma was just biting me in the ass??? I was told by my traveling companion that I was “a mean person” because of the way I handled some SOME people in Bali???

My traveling companion? Who is this guy who pays thousands of dollars for me to travel with him? The customs agent was unconvinced and I am sure other people wonder where all this comes from. He is a man who lives in SFO and likes to travel with someone and I am usually good company. I am brave and can be fairly sohpisticated when it comes to food and wine. I can also organize and make arrangements for entertainment… so I can be fun.

Alas, I still did not answer the questions. Alas, I must be off to school for my evening class. Maybe I will add more to this later this evening. Cheers!

As I write this it is Sunday 8:40 pm in Taiwan! I am very tired because in reality it is something like evening in California right now. I finished my book by Steven Saylor on the way here from Bali. It has an exciting ending and it was way cool. I asked my travel “buddy” to get me back on Sunday so I can start school on Monday without any problems. The trip has been a success so far.

I am anxious to get back and see Adolfo. Mom e-mailed me and told me she talked to him and I was happy to hear that. I hope he is happy about it!

I do not know I have much to write about right now. I suppose the pictures I will eventually post and all the chat about them will have to speak for me. I am so sleepy!

Love and Kisses!!!!!

Almost middle day on Day3 here in Bali. There was another little earthquake last night, but it was hardly noiceable. I slept well though. The room I have is absolutely lovely. In fact, you can see it on their website at www.thebale.com and we have the same view. The sunrise over the Indian Ociean is remarkable!

We went shopping while here and I got a local garmet, silver bracelet, shirt, chop stick sets, and a couple gifts here and there. This place is cool and the people are very different. We should have a little lesson today on the cutlture.

Had lunch yesterday at the Four Season in Ubud while driving through the country side. Dinner was at the Four Season in Jimbaran last night and it was okay. The entr last night was duck and some bad chick-pea variation that was awful. But, I ordered garlic mash potatoes with it that were awesome. We also had a champagne that was okay, but the best part was desert. I had a souffle that was pure sex in itself.

I also saw some woman drop in the middle of the restaurant. She fainted cold. The heat here is tough to deal with as it is 8 degrees south of the equator! I thought Thailand was worse though, but I still do not have the constituion to deal with this all that well. Thank goodness for random acts of air conditioning.

I miss Adolfo very much and am plagued with thinking of him. I feel like I am a plant without sunlight with him so far away. I sorely wish he could have come away with me on this trip. Or any trip for that matter. I suspect he and I will be very busy through January with our lives. At least we have the holidays and other plans coming to light! I hope that he and I will spend Christmas together in a apartmentr that we will share.

It is almost time for me to head out for the day. Here it is 10:15 in the morning. I see these posts get posted according to the server in where ever blogger.com is siuated. It is also Saturday my time and I will be heading home tomorrow. To come here I left on Tuesday and arrived on Thursday. To go hm I leave on Sunday and come home on Sunday…. that’s the international date line baby!

Thanks to those who sent me e-mail!

Talk soon…. Scott

It is 4:30 am in Bali, Indonesia right now and I am hre checking e-mail. I was so tired I fell asleep last night (local time) at 8pm. Sad, huh??? At 3am this morning we woke up during a neat earthquake! The whole place was shaking. No one else seemed to notice and I thought it was cool! Well, except the other guy in the room.

Only did some shopping and had dinner last night. I am getting a lot of pictures so in the coming days there should be some fresh postings on my site. The place looks over the Indian Ocean and the architecture here is something to marvel. You will see what I can sho in the pics. There are almost NO cute guys here! This is a place where fugly seems to be normal! The cutest guys are forrigners. I expereinced the same situation in Thailand when I was there a couple months ago.

I am sure Adolfo would think I was being a complete whore! He seems to think I want to hump anything that has legs… NO! So few people truly appreciate me. Ha ha ha!

Anyway, we are looking at going on a tour today. There is something called the x-files tour, museum and gallery tour, and a Kuta night life tour. This company doing the tours is not very responsive, so who knws what we will end up with.

Talk soon!

Since my last entry I found out that I was a day off on my whole trip. As I write this I am sitting in a Taiwan airport waiting for my next flight on to Bali. The trip on China Airlines was fantastic and we keep talking about what we are going to do! Who knows what pictures I will come back with???? I am totally looking forward to having some fun. I am told there is a place to see a monkey forest and another place where we can ride elephants! Imagine????

The airport here sucks but the Dynbaty Lounge for VIP flyers is really nice. Last time I was here they had some delicious food. The Dynasty VIP lounge in SFO kinda sucked, though. They had a lot of junk food…. blech!

The flight was great and there was a stewartress that reminded me of yjr girl who played Batgiel in the old Adma West version of Batman frm the 1960’s. She was cute and perky! Anyway… all is good. I shold be fine. I am glad I can update the diary from afar.

I will be staying at The Bali hotel (www.thebale.com) where I am amazed at the rooms. The place looks over the Indian Ocean and we will have a private servant in the room at all times! What a trip huh!?!?!?! Check it out and take care!

Finals were over on the 19th and I am only just writing out here in the mighty journal. Since then, I have been doing a lot while enjoying my time out of school. Adolfo and I went to visit family on the weekend having left the 20th and went to my mom’s and then off his his parents on the 21st. It was another great trip. Things seem to be really good between us.

I have been stressed beyond belief. Barely a night has gone by without a bad night of trying to sleep. In other words, I have not been sleeping very well at all. I just discovered that I may have made a huge error in planning. The buddy I went to Thailand with wanted me to go to Bali with him this week. I thought I was leaving 10/1 at night and as I look at the intinerary I just got a ferw hours ago it seems I was supposed to be on a plane 3 hours ago. I tried calling him and his phone is not answering.

I already gave away all my work hours for my part time job. I am also committed to working tomorrow morning at Sur La Table. I can’t get out of that.

I feel like hell right now… my stomach is an acid bath. Damn, this has been a stressful week. Argh, now I can’t think of anything else. Maybe I will update this again tomorrow if I am still here. This would have been a really cool trip had I not fucked this up. He is going to be pissed at me. I was already half packed to leave tomorrow!

good night…