Yesterday was also very busy and my stress level is breaking heart-attack range right now. Neither of us make enough money to support our lives right now. Once in a blue moon we get into a finanancial pinch and here we are again! I have an electric bill demanding attention, cable, and then rent… not in that order. Chronologically speaking, power is the most immediate since they sent us a new love letter saying I should open it immediately.

What am I gunna do. I have 14 days to generate enough money to cover bills. Not impossible… stranger things have happened. Usually they do, but not to linger over this subject too long… who knows. Feels free to contribute by hitting the HOME link and using my PAYPAL link provided… yeah right.

You know I can see through my stats who is visiting me. I am not getting a lot of people it seems. I can see that I may be my biggest fan because I have popped into my own site to make sure certain pages were reading correctly. Next is Rochester Road Runner cable… i.e. my pal Ian. I also looks like someone in Las Vegas is checking me out, too. University Nevada Medical Center is also making visits… welcome!

Maybe it is the phychiatric ward?

I was busy all day yesterday with a early morning wake-up to take Adolfo to work, then I made a cake for a dinenr party. Then I was ff to work in a dash and spent the day there. At 6 I went to the dinner party and stayed til almost 10, then we went to the pool for a while. It was nice… it was an okay day afterall.

Adolfo is vacuuming and I am not doing my homework… shame on me. Anyway… I need to fly. Happy day y’all!

I had a busy day yesterday and I was gone from 8 in the morning to 10:30 at night. School all morning, then off to the gym, and completed my day at Sur La Table. It was a very busy day, but the thing is I like that. I like being busy like that.

I also have been listening to Linkoln Park so much I am hearing the music in my head when I am not listening to it. I turn it up quite loud in the truck and feel really intrigued with the lyrics when I am driving around.

Wierd though… I have this idea that no one could possibly know what a big fag I am when I drive around and listen to this stuff. I like being perceived at “straight”. Some girls were checking me out the other day and I was laughing so hard on the inside. ha ha ha!

Adolfo has been mad at me for a few days. He occasionally tried putting the frustration aside from me so we can relax… I cannot be open about the wource of the argument… but this one is ALL MY FAULT and this sucks. I can be such an idiot some times. No… I did nto cheat on him. Get over it.

Anyway… I have to work all night tonight. I’ll be there til 11 at Sur La Table. Bored out of my head! My mind slowly diminishing to dust. My drive for life crushed under the wheels of …. dramatic, huh? Anyway… talk soon.

I logged onto chat today and almost everyone is gone? Where is everyone? No Allan? No Brian? No Chippy? No Ian?

Adolfo had a mood swing last night. He left me a note and was gone before I got up this morning… in the note he said nice things. I am working and schooling the whole freeking day so I will not be home til after 10 tonight.

I bought Jack Danials Hard Cola last night… YUM!

Lately there has been a couple issues about my diary. I am wondering of having it is becoming a detriment. This has been used against me or against us lately in a couple ways. Not thrilled with that. Is there a danger to putting out too much personal information?

oh hell… anyway… off to school

Day#3 at school. Week is going well. Nothing to bitch about. It’s been a busy week and I am enjoying being busy. Sucks that I am not at a 100%. I feel bloated. I feel bored with my Job. I took my resume into Chef Hoffmeister for his review and I will hopefully get some good feedback from him.

Anyway, Adolfo made another great dinner tonight. He is soooooooooooo talented. He is soooo good at making saute’s.

Ilove him so much. We have been talking a lot lately about us and where we are going… it’s been good. We are thinking about getting married. If this happens I will send out announcments!

Today was the first day abck to school. It went okay. I have a new teached whom I have not warmed up to yet. He seems okay and he seems like a competant feller and all. We will see. I just want to learn some cool stuff.

For the next three weeks we will be studying Mediterreanean Cuisine. This week will feature Spain!

Anyway, I had to work late last night at Sur La Table. I was really busy which I like. After I got home Adolfo and I stayed up to nearly 2 in the morning just talking. I have been dragging my tits through the dirt all morning. We are going to bed early tonight. Yeah, baby… TO SLEEP!

I had a wonderful weekend with Adolfo so far. Friday night we went to go see LXG and just as the movie started we got into a fight and then when we got home we made up. He turned evil for a few hours… surprise.

Since then we have had a good day. We had a very romantic kind of day yesterday. We rolled around i bed in the morning like idiots, then went out for lunch to Pizza Hut. Shopped for a bit at the Boulevard Mall. I got a hat on clearance from the GAP… wha-hooo. Then we cam home and took a nap. Oh my goodness it was a great afternoon of laying naked in bed escaping the summer heat under the cieling fan!

Today I have to work. SprintPCS is demanding money… ashholes! I paid them so they can kiss my lilly white ass. Oh, and it’s white too!

Anyway, no one is reading my diary anymore. Poor me. No one loves Scott anymore. Boo-hoo… bastards. I never hear from people no more… what’s up with that? Love ya – mean it.

Oh my hell… it’s Friday and 114 degrees predicted outside. 90 degrees at 4 am this morning and it is going to be the same through next week at least.

I am so stressed out right now over all kinds of the usual things. I wish I could be more confident and self secure about a list of things… primarily money and being able to pay bills. Our cash is so tight right now.

Obviously I do not have a lot to talk about in my diary today. I do not want to gobble up time with the usual bitching and griping. Adolfo is good and Tom the Dawg is also good. My truck is running well and school kicks off again on Monday.

I have discovered I am probably repsonsible for my own stress. I am responsible for all my problems… I wish I had someone else to blame and be angry with about. Then I could sue him/her or whatever. Ergh… ha ha ha.

I guess I have a few things I am going to mention:

1. I had another one of those nights, last night, wherein I dream about a lot of little things and lot of them are very stressful. I cannot remember any of them which sucks. I tossed and turned all night. It’s wierd what happens with stress and physical reactions from it.

2. Money issues are still prevalent. My budget to the end of month is not looking especialy good. Ergh! Stress!

3. Went to go see Pirates of the Carribean last night and it was soooooooooooo good. I went in with no clue what to expect. I was thinking it might be a nice, safe, family film. Oh my goodness… it was so well put together. Only one scene near the end was tripe… but the movie as a whole was great. Johnny Depp was funny as hell. Orlando Bloom… still sexy as hell! Adolfo kept making comments to me about Orlando and I was laughing, because he knows I would be all over that boy if I ever saw him.

4. We also saw T3 a few days ago. Great opening sequence… good movie for the most part… sucked bad on the end! Ruined everything… Arnie shold have stayed home or went to run for Governor instead of working on this one. What happen to audience testing? sheesh!

5. LXG coming on Friday!!! I will be there! See it on Movies.Com!

No dream updates, no anger at Adolfo, nothing special today to report. Who knows how long I can keep this doary updated properly with school starting on Monday. I am stressing stressing stressing over so many things right now.

Money is my usual issue. We are way tight with cash right now and I am getting worried about rent for August. I always stress over these things and in the end they tend to work out. Oi Vay I hope this works out… Since I got a new truck (new is 1997 Ford Explorer) with Drive Time my payments and expenses related to it have been higher than before.

Wouldn’t it be lovely if I could live without worrying about bills every month? Oh well…

Today the plan is to go to the gym, IRS, meet Kieth and got shopping at International Market, then get Adolfo, get dinner, then see Pirates of the Carribean!!!!!! I have all the movies printed out from Movies.Com .. yippee!

I got my grades yesterday from school and I want to rub Kieth’s nose into it…

A- Chacuterie Class

B+ Hors doeuvres

A- Pantry

A Nutrition

98% on my Nutrician Certification

I’m a weiner! .. I mean winner… ha ha ha

I do not remember my dreams last night…. but this was another morning where it was hard to get my ass out of bed. Kieth called me last night, Kieth is a pal of mine from school, thinking I was dreaming about him the night before. Wishful THINKING tiger… ha ha ha.

You know, I have had one dream a lot… in fact I have had this dream at least 4 times:

I dream I feel a loose tooth. Bottom row, front most, and it freaks me out. I feel is loose with my tongue, hold it and feel it come out. Then I push it back in and it stays. Sometimes it stays loose.

That was the whole thing… the truth is I have two front teeth that are really pushed together and it bugs the hell out of me. I have not found a dentist that ever took me seriously and I will probably never get it fixed properly. Out of all the dentists in my life only one has shown competence… and would you be surprised he was an Army dentist???? I was surprised.