I decided to complete school this week… for now. I took a lot of classes that can take me up to a certain level of MicrSoft certs, but in the end I do not know if/how/when I will use it except for my own good at this time. I keep seeing a different future for me and it keeps coming back to cooking… oddly enough. Well, Culinary Mngt anyway.
Well, I am gunna be bizzy for the next couple days so I will update soon!
xo Scott
p.s. – I am on gay.com as “scotters” so look me up.
Been busy here as usual… we had guests visiting from L.A. and NYC over the last two weeks who hung out even though we were barely home.
Kaidy was here and he really clicked with Adolfo… which I was surprised about. Adolfo tends to be jelous and bitchy toward people with whom I have a past. Although, Kaidy charmed the heck out him… yeah!
Chippy was here from NYC and it was a frustrating start for both of us. He lost his cell on the subway on the way to the airport. That meant we had no way of communicating directly… argh. BUT, when we talked I found him to be an interesting soul. He is spiritual and unbound in many ways. He also inspired me to do more running like I used to do ‘back in the day’ when I was much thinner… oi vay.
I am planning Adolfo’s birthday party on the 16th; dinner party at a nice Italian restaurant with friends. I got him a p-coat and a watch. I am making him a cake: white sponge style cake with chambord soak, raspberry cheesecake filling, and an Italian meringue icing. Sound good??? I’ll post pics soon (after the event). We’re going to Green Valley Ranch and I expect it waill be a lot of fun!
I know I said this before, but we gave notice yesterday that we are moving to our management company. Yes… Seattle is still the favorite location. I should be securing a new place to live this week. Now, we have to find jobs! I know they are out there…
I am leaving school next week too to work on some new goals for us. We have committed to getting our finances in shape and have printout from ConsumerInfo.com (Free Credit Report.Com) of all our credit reports and are stunned by it all. Ugh! The ultimate goal is to buy a house by the end of 2005 or the beginning of 2006 outside of Seattle. (sigh)
Anyway, sorry it has been so long since I posted updates! More to come! Scott
So, this has been a goofy week. Kaidy came in from L.A. and stayed with us a few days. He is a sweetheart!!!! He has never met Adolfo before and they got on very well. Kaidy and I were “involved” in back in the day and Adolfo handled all that well enough.
Another couple we know… long time freinds of Adolfo… may have split. I like both of them, so it is hard to feel more for one over the other. Well,I hope no matter that happens they will both be happy in the end.
I have also been working on our finances. I printed out our credit reports from consumerinfo.com (freecreditreport.com)… my report was 19 pages long. Holy crap! Yet, I have a lot of work ahead of me with that. Adolfo’s was half the size of mine… ugh.
Talk soon!
I am up too late again tonight working on one of my “projects”. I am frustrated because I am discovering a lack of information… ugh. BUT… since tomorrow is my Friday at work I need to drag my tired ass to bed. I also have school tomorrow night… ugh again.
Well, that was deep. Ugh… jay Leno just appeared on the tv… I ned to GO!
I got an e-mail from terry today and it was nice. He is always a character. He was my best friend back in high school One story from our past continuously haunts me: he and I drank some cheap sparkling wine and sour-cream and onion popcorn… well I threw every bit of it up! He and I have a lot of crazy stories from our high school years and some time after. I cannot imagine how I did all the things I did back then. I had a lot of fun.
Anyway, this has become a time for a lot of new thinking. Always thinking. Sometimes too much! Hwever, I am trying to et goals again. Let’s see where all this leads to?
Today was a rough day… not bad. Just a little rough. I could feel some seriously bad energy floating around me all day. It was as if I was attracting negative energy from other people al the while. I had negative interaction with people everywhere until I just chilled.
When I do not eat my whole personality and vibe changes. I am gruff and impatient. I am easily frustrated and reactive.
So, after I ate dinner tonight I felt completely different. I had Orange Chicken at the Pick-Up Stix near school and I felt so good afterward. Hmmm… funny, huh?
Well, I am on my way to pickup Adolfo from work. Cheers! xo
I have been working odd hours at work this week because of all the conventions happening. I am exhausted! I have to be there at 5am and I worked OT yesterday without even realizing it. It’s been a little nutty, but the action has been good. I like staying busy
Anyway, as I write this I am thinking about getting to bed. Long ass day coming tomorrow. Tomorrow is also my Friday and it is overdue. I have to get through it though. I doubt there will be a problem.
I have been looking at my visitor stats and the diary seems to be one of my more popular pages… but almost no one is coming to visit! hmmm… sad me
Okay, talk soon! xo
Got a nice e-mail from Allan today. Got an annoying e-mail from Keith, too. He was responding to my e-mail to him and basically made excuses for it all. Whatever.
I think this is a good thing, in a way, that I can see people in a different light. There are a lot of people I don’t like. There are a lot of people who are interesting. There are a lot of interesting looking people who are boring as hell.
Ever hear an interview with Janet Jackson? I saw her in Letterman or something once and damn if she did’nt sound boring. I see guys with exotic looks and swarthy shells who are either stupid as a rock or boring as the mold under the rock. What’s up with that????
I guess I am ranting. I have a lot of people in my universe who vary in a lot of ways. Some are sweet and nice as anyone could ever be… but dumb as a stump.
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Don’t I sound like such a bitch? well, FUCK YOU. ha ha ha ha ha…
Today went by so fast. Today is my Saturday from work. It turns out it is my Monday for school. I swear I just woke up and am already ready for bed… but Adolfo and I are supposed to go out for a drink tonight. YEAH!
God help me… can’t use any names here. None mentioned above however; that has to be cleared up for the sensative folks out there. All I can say to them: “At least you’re pretty…”
I have been really upset with pal Keith for reasons I am not going to get into. I wrote him an e-mail explaining why. It started on Christmas Eve and has not come to closure. I am not sure how I feel about it at this point… because I ask myself… do I respect him?
I mean really… I am NO innocent myself. I have done a LOT of things to deserve very little respect form a lot of people. Hell, I barely respct myself. Well, metaphorically speaking…
When I feel betrayed. When I feel like my relationship with someone has become destructive. When I sense I have lost respect for that individual… I pull away. I do not want to make it worse or let it get to a point where it gets explosive.
If you read back you would see where I filtered a lot of people out of my life. Too many names to list and a few of those people pop-in on my site periodically to see. I think about all of them some times and wonder if I was too impulsive? …in the end I agree with myself that I did what was ultimately right. …I think.
What’s done is done. That was a personality I expereinced in Boston. It took a while to really build more solid relationships there. Friends were freinds. There was a tremendous value to all of that.
Las Vegas is a vacant place and I feel very alone here. I crave warmth and a better sense of community and a better social support here. I have this possibly unreal vision of what life should be… freinds coming by and sitting in the kitchen with coffee. Watching tv or playing games together… not here.
I look up to Seattle for a place to build a life at. I sense I can have a home there and settle… I can hope huh?
xo