I got an e-mail from Allan today about my FAT Rant… he has a weight problem himself and was there with words of encouragment. Isn’t that precious. Well, he has used that as an excuse not to come visit in 2 years… plus all of his other issues. Oh what a long list we weave… tangled web or sewn somethings… ha ha ha. (Allan just called me an “bloody” asshole somewhere)

The plan after work today is to see Harry Potter! There is hardly a really good theater to go to anymore… so much white-trash and ghetto scum that hang out anymore. The benefit of going to a newly released movie is that most people will not put up with people being asses.

Next 12 year old girl I see in the theater I am tazzzzzing her if she sits anywhere near me! Why is it girls and old black men think they can talk through a movie? Are they missing something????

Anyway, I have had a sucky day so far and I hope tonight proves to be somewhat relaxing. I come in late tomorrow so at least I can relax tonight. XOXOXOX

Here is a little preview of the site coming after Thanksgiving. Upon the release it will have pictures from my Thanksgiving Dinner!

Like the ALL NEW ART!?!?!?! Plus some exciting and fun features. This is gunna be way cool.

My Thanksgiving menu is also formed and when I showed it off at work, one of my co-workers wanted the same dinner and offered to buy. I might be making two dinners this holiday….

Interesting in joining us for dinner…? Dear freinds are always welcome. I am hoping this will be one of the best holidays ever. I wish my parents could have been here.

I am fat. Okay… so as overweight as I feel I am, as much as I know I have gained and need to loose, it’s funny that a lot of people still look at me as an attractive person. I am starting to lose my hair, too. Oh my HELL…. my life is spiraling downhill. BUT NOT REALLY!!!!

Imagine that ugly people manage to find lovers, get married, and get laid once in a while themselves. Twinks and teenagers can’t imagine that ugly people can get love too. Ugly people can be happy. The funniest thing is when two ugly people make a baby it can be gorgeous …or hideous.

I saw some pictures of when I lived in Boston.. I was fierce looking back them. I am so not ugly now, but this weight totally bothers me. I sometimes see people that are extremely attractive, BUT they are carrying just enough weight that it detracts from their looks… that’s me.

Since leaving Boston I gained 40#s!!!!!! I can hardly imagine… because I have not weighed this much since I was in high school. Between my junior year and senior year I lost a good amount of weight. I further enhanced my body with weight training and regular exercise to become quite good looking; I even almost became a model (scary story).

Well, as you can imagine, being a Chef and having a relationship are two factors that have been roadblocks in trying to lose weight. Adolfo has moderately encouraged me to get more fit, but he has been more of an obstacle than anything. I have not exactly been Plymouth Rock about my convictions, too.

Slowly… surely… I am on yet another scheme to begin my decent on weight. For the last week I have substituted 2 meals of my day to protein shakes that are low in calories and high in protein. Some carbs, virtually no fat, and pretty healthy over all. Like this morning.. I had orange juice and carrot juice in the blender … then I added 2 scoops of powder … done til 1… where I ate a Cliff bar (High fiber)… and had a normal lunch about 2pm (salad and chicken fingers).

This is my early night, so I get to go home soon. I am off at 6 and Adolfo announced he is cooking dinner. This is totally wrong… I am not even close to being hungry.

Good news is that tomorrow we are planning on going to see Harry Potter! Daniel is such a cutie! Anyway… tah!

I have been meaning to post this picture… this is Tom in a Holloween costume I got for him and dressed him up one evening. He was MIZZZZZZERABLE and was hating it, but he gave in to me. See the misery in his face?

Anyway… nothing special happening tonight except: I got an e-mail from Gary today. He is always busy anymore. We hardly talk. AND… I heard from Rosa (see here in the new who’s-sho listing with the new 2006 web site).

Rosa is a dear gal-pal who lost her husband a little while back and has the awesome support from her family; sisters, mother, and kids. I hope to see her again soon.

My 2006 site is still coming along, but I noticed a very concerning flaw in my execution that I am glad I discovered in advance…. it all has to do with layout and frames… ugh. Now, I used to be excellent at design and had a lot of advanced skills. But, there have been more advancements in web then I have kept up with and not in the mood to pic up a whole new coding regiment.

Anyway, I have figured a way around it and will be on-time with delivery of the site. I think it will be way cool.

I built profiles for some of my peeps who I talk about a lot in the diary and encourage all of you/them to give me feedback. It’s totally basic with a pic and a name and a birth sign… blah blah blah.

Do you ever do searches on Google with various words that only may make sense to yourself? Image searches are what I mean. I did one today on “idiot” because I wanted to insert something funny and stupid on this entry because it’s just how I feel right now. Well… I saw a pic of a guy in a woman’s lacey thing with his dick in the exhast pipe of an SUV and he was smiling. Uhm… I couldn’t even do it. I was just … nauseated.

I look a pics of hot guys all the time with it because that is fun. For some reason I was compelled to put in “Persian Boys” and ended up looking at a series of picnic pictures of dorks at M.I.T. … Persian Student Association. At least one of them was hot anyway. I looked through them and amused myself (no that way) for 5 minutes.

I even looked up “Johnny Knoxville” because I found a pic from his new movie “Ringer” that was showing some dick. So, I figured there has to be naked pics of Knoxville out there and everything I saw was totally G/PG … bitches.

google is the coolest. No wonder those fuckers are so rich and all their people so fucking happy. I used “fuck” twice in the same sentence. I am a moron.

Also note that I have not heard from Gary in such a long time. I should e-mail him. Then again, I have not inserted much Drama in my diary that makes it sound like I am about the Thelma/Louise it into the Grand Canyon.

Poop

Last night when I left work I was in an absolute state of anger. I let some ass get up my nose and then I really got more and more frustrated with the drive home. This was one of thise nights that people should start drinking over. I was a mess until I got some food in my gut… then I started mellowing.

Yes, I am still dieting and wishing I could see instant results. I waiver a bit, but have maintained the course for the most part. Like right now… I wanted to eat something sweet and just eye-balled the vending machine in the hall. There are these new candy bars called “Take 5” and though the chocolate is Hershy-crap it does taste very good. It has a salty pretzel running through the center with caramel and… yum… anyway, I had a Cliff Bar instead. Yeah for me.

Anyway, so I get home last night and Adolfo’s mom has made Papusas. I ate 2 of them in spite of all the fat in them. Yummers!

So, I woke up late this morning and had coffee with Rosa. She only has a little because of her blood pressure or something like that. I figured I would be spending my pre-work day with her and went to shower. I come out of the shower and SHE is gone as well as all her stuff. Everything… not even a notion she was there.

I called Adolfo and then later his sister calls me telling how she rushed Rosa out. They had apparently gone to the Wynn where Adolfo works and had lunch or something… before heading back to Whittier. Ugh!

So, now I sit at work on another lovely Sunday evening waiting for 11 when I can escape. Cheers for now… xo

The new version of UrielsLantern will be going live in December! It’s coming together so naturally that it is amazing. I have some little details to hammer out… the biggest differences will be how some of the material is presented. Photo albums will be virtually the same. Why reinvent the wheel? Unless I can find a metter means of presenting them.

I would put all my pics on Flickr.Com, but you cannot customize the galleries over there. I would want it to fit into the general feeling of the site! It’s nice when you can use an awesome tool like Flickr and make it seemless as well as cross-promote it.

…… Rosa arrived last night, but as it turns out she is only staying through tommorrow. We went through a lot of my cooking magazines and I showed here a lot of the stuff I have been saving. It is amazing how well her and I click. I noticed she has a very different personality than Adolfo. He is very picky when it comes to food and his mom is very open minded. I have made a lot of headway in broadening his tastes over time.

Well, Christmas is coming and we are already gearing up. Just over a month away and counting. For my fans, don’t forget me. My X-Mas List is at my 2nd Blog. I have been keeping my wish list updated and current. So fear not… most items are avaiable on the web and can be delivered by the fine folks at USPS or UPS.

Cheers!

My 2006 web site is coming a long better than I imagined. I got some custom art work in the mail the other day I added this morning and it is awesome. I will be looking for some key scripts and stuff to make it bigger and better.

Tonight, Adolfo’s mother is coming to stay with us for an undetermined amount of time. It will sets me on edge a little as I am uncomfortable having to adjust my surroundings to accommodate people, but truthfully I love Rosa and I know how much she wants to be close to Adolfo so there is no question about her being welcome.

We bought a new bed for her to sleep on and my office got ejected to the bedroom. Oddly enough, I like it better this way. Adolfo did some rearranging of the apartment too. Partially to make the place more manageable, bit also because we need a place for the x-mas tree when it is time to put that up.

Thanksgiving is on the horizon and we are throwing open the doors for guests… so it will be interesting who shows up and how it goes. I will always have pictures as this menu comes into shape. I am looking at a southern style menu with a little opulence and style to it. Should be so cool! Of course, I’ll be posting it and all the recipes!!!!

Look at this! I found this web site for a movie called Archangel showing on BBC six months ago.. this is a book I read and loved it!!!! Daniel Craig, the new James Bond, starred in it! I will be hunting for this in DVD!!!!

As usual, lots of thoughts popping around inside my head and little action. I want to get life rolling for me once again and this may involve some other big changes for me… I am seriously considering another school venture… in China!

Scott 2006 is coming alive! I had gone down a whole road of configuring, setting up and making art for the new 2006 site featuring meeeeeeeeeeeeeee and after the last couple of blogs I decided that I had to go a new direction. This version is all black, dark, moody. Basically depressing… while the all new me is going to be bright, brilliant, and new.

I made a list of my cds. I made my book list.. blah blah blah. But, now I want to make a whole series of new attractions and images that I hope will make the site POP! I am going to add my Sirus stuff as well as other interesting new features to keep you bitches coming back!

Plus, I’ll be using the Blog for more pics than what I will put into my gallery so pics and text go hand in hand more. I want to put some profiles of people I blog about and with to add new dimention to my gallery to include a picture and some background. So Allan and Brian(Chicago) might object and I hope they won’t. But, I think this will be really cool. Can I count you in Gary?

This should be cool… I hope you agree!

Scott

This is the cake I made Kenny for his birthday. He had been bugging me about a chocolate cake with cream cheese frosting for 2 years and I finally delivered. Naturally I had to make it my way as I am not very fond on homestyle.

None the less, I made the icong fluffy looking and built up fresh shavings of chocolate. It looks very nice, I think. I always look at it after and begin figuring ways I could have made it better. As I nibbled on a bit of it today… because the damn thing is still in my friggin’ fridge… I could have made it Italian style and it would have been so much nicer. His birthday was the 1st and we had dinner on the 2nd together.

I had made a nice dinner. This is Me, Kenny, and BrianLV. He got some bad food poisoning from his birthday dinner the night before while he was out with some of this other friends. In spite of being nausiated he ate everything and more! He hates green vegetables so there was not a single vegie in site for this meal

• Steaks
• Red Skin Mash Potato
• Herb Biscuits

It was a nice evening and I suspect he will thoroughly enjoy his birthday gift. Care to guess what it was? A HUGE bottle of Grey Goose!

Is it me or does Kenny look peekid? Ha ha ha ha! Adolfo was in command of the camera. Happy Birthday!