Author Archive: scott.kay
My job at the Venetian
As you can see, as of this morning, there are more changes to the appearance of the web site. I have been diddling these changes in my head a few days now and finally assembled them tonight. I was able to make a lot of chages to things I want to …. on this site and others.
It’s been a long night. I am at work right now and looking at the last hour ticking by. My job right now is a “show up and collect a paycheck” kinda thing. I am still working on my directions as I struggle to get direction in life. My passions with cooking are probably more personal than career? I’m not thrilled with this IT Department… the place I work at kinda sucks sometimes. BUT, the job is pretty skate on the Overnight shift anyway.
At this job when I work day or swing shift people are pretty upfront about treating me like a complete dumbass. People in this department are rude, condescending, arrogant and often pathetic. I have worked in IT almost my whole working life after the military and never have seen such a dysfunctional environment.
It’s not my problem. I said it already, I show up and get paid these days. Paid well, too! So, how can I kvetch too much?
I would like to find the dream job. It’s got to be out there because I had it before. When I worked at a web company in L.A. I had the best job with the greatest people. I still think back to the people I knew there and occasionally get to talk to them on-line. Mark, Michelle, and others. There was a guy named Garo who I was certain would end up in prison on a rape or stalking charge???? He was/is a nice guy but was a bit of a ‘tard with women. And there was Frank who I just recently found out from Mark that he was killed in a drive-by shooting. SUCKS!
There are some people here at the Venetian I really like that I am currently working with! Not all of them are assholes… at least the people at the Help Desk (75% of them) stick together and comizerate over the other butt-heads.
Why haven’t I started looking for another job? Well, I got my resume started. The reason I am not rushing out the door is because I have it pretty good as a worker-bee here. 8 hours a day, 1 hour paid lunch, they feed me, and on the over night shift I have to interact with a minimum amount of people.
Oh well… it will all come together. Cheers for now…. and tell me what you think of the changes!
Look at my Chest
A couple weeks ago I mentioned a project I did. I build the top half of this cabinet set, but I decided afterward I did not really care for it much. So, it is going to be recycled into something a little more presentable.
I spent a lot of time and money on this silly thing, but I’m not especially thrilled with it. Since this picture, Adolfo re-aranged the things on it in a much better way.
In a little while I am heading off to work.
This week I got a call from Sam in OC and Terry if Visalia. I was happy to hear from my guys out there. Both referred to comments in the diary.
xoxox
Traveling: IN Whittier, CA
We are curently traveling and are in Whittier, California. We left Las Vegas on Monday and went to my dad’s place.
My dad (www.[redacted].com) has changed so much over time and yet remains the same. It is as if somehow, over time, we have grown toward each other. I have always loved my family and because of my gay orientation I think it created a barrier between us. He probably would never ask “are you gay?” or anything like that. I dunno… but I love him and his wife.
Then we went to see my mom. She is all excited about a product she wants to sell as the next miracle product. Really, it’s another pyramid scheme packaged nicely. I feel bad for her because she is counting on it to help with their retirement.
Now, we’re here in Whittier (as I mentioned earlier) and I feel like odd-man-out. Most people here are speaking Spanish and I understand only a little of it. I got frustrated last night having been in the middle of a conversation when suddenly everyone revert to Spanish and I was out. They think I should learn Spanish… maybe I could? But, I have tried and languages are not my strong suit… so I get screwed in the end.
I speak German. I can speak it fairly well… but I started learning German when I was a kid. I lived in Germany. Hell, if it were not for that I might not be able to speak it today?????
We are going shopping today. Nothing exciting… IKEA and some other stuff. xo
February Madness!!!!
I get so caught up in shit sometimes that I neglect this diary. I feel lik e nobody is reading it anymore and that I am dumping my words and expressions into nothing… it’s frustrating. I want people to read it… call me stupid… make comments… and relate.
Since the begining of the month I have been doing the same ol thing… work, sleep, gym… blah blah blah.
Things between Adolfo and I have been different with this schedule that has us moving in separate directions. I have been working Overnight 11pm to 7am while he bounces between Day and Swing Shifts. You can see where we might be missing each other in the scheme of things.
Tonight and tomorrow I am wroking a Swing Shift, but most of next week I will be fortunate enough that I am off a few days and really do not have to think about work so much. It will be nice to escape for a while. I find myself squirming and panicing a bit about where I want to be in life right now.
Adolfo and I are facing the end of our lease at the end of March and having to make decisions on…. do we move out and move somewhere in the world… do we do this together? I posed two plans to him in that area… that I move to Seattle this month and he stay behind. Then we use that time to decide if we stay together or not.
The other plan is simpler… we stay here in LV for a few more months and pay more bills. We stay in this apartmet a little longer… the rent has gone up 150.00 … ugh …
This week I got a wild hair up my ass and decided it was time to begin some of our Spring Cleaning. We moved furnture from bedroom to bedroom. Basically we moved the desk out of the Master to the 2nd bedroom and put a nice shelving until into the master… we managed to not set up the television in the bedroom either.
Well, I built this book case for the dining room to go on top of the Sideboard and it looked great before I loaded all the books and brick-a-brack onto it. Now I think it just looks kinda crappy and gaudy. I spent over a 100$ on it and am just crushed that it looks so bad. I took a picture that I will post from home tomorrow.
Anyway, no other real news. I hope everyone is good. I talked to Chippy in NYC for a while today and was thrilled. He’s such a cutie patootie! Talk soon!
Daydreaming
At work again and am looking forward to getting through Feb successfully. This is going to be a busy month, I think. We are taking a small vacation, Adolfo’s birthday, Mom is visiting again… I was supposed to move to Seattle.
I had thought that I would move to Seattle on/about the 20th and look for a job while up there. I had a prospect, but the guy I was talking to seems to have a very different vision to me than what I did. He is a nice guy and everything, but he does not seem to have any repsect for kitchen people. I thought about talking to him about it, but I expect it would not get very far. He is opening a couple restaurants.
My own enterprise www.blueangelcafe.com does not seem to be getting any attention. I invested in a posting on a major business funding web site www.fundingpost.com and there has been nothing so far as a result. The ionvestor in Seattle, mentioned in the previous paragraph, went over my model with me and gave it the thumbs down. I understood his reasons why, but it is hard for me to accept honesty. It is HIS feeling, but I can see where someone else would not have the same perception. He told me I did not have a trackk record to go by and he was right. I am ready to lay down some tracks.
Our flu pandemic in the Scott&Adolfo house has finally passed and we both feel healthy again.
I finished “The DaVinci Code” in a matter of days and posted a review through the Angel link above. So I went to try and find the next book I planned on reading and ended up having to order it online through the www.bn.com site. So, I decided to order another, too.
I ordered Uriel’s Machine which sounded intriguing. I’ll write more as I understand it… odd thing to me was that it was in the Occult section at the bookstore.
I also ordered “Angels and Demons” which is another book from Dan Brown author of “The DaVinci Code”.
Oh, I have a my space now, too. Which just proves how bored I can get at work some nights.
Anyway, I hope ya’ll are good. XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOOOOOOO
Complete Mental Breakdown – Coming Soon
I have a flood of things that are on my mind. Since the beginning of this year, I have been thinking about a lot of stuff. It is a concern of mine that life, since I left Boston, has been filled with a lot of turmoil and questions. The thing is that I have been running my life at the end of a rope. Even before I moved to Boston in some areas there have been behaviours that really need to be examined.
It is as if all those things and more are finally catching up with me and kicking me squarely in the balls.
I can hardly put it all together sitting here in the Venetian at the end of my business day wanting to post out on the Diary and descramble it all.
- Religious Issues
- Financial Issues with the IRS
- Feeling upset right now about my Sister who hates me
- Upset about my career path…
- … about my life path
- Doubting myself and my abilities all the time… directionless and angry.
- Being angry and defensive…
- Our Lease is up at the end of March… what will we do?
That’s just the surface. These subjects are swirling around my head like a tornado and are depresssing the shit out of me. It is interesting to listen to people talk about depression on t.v. or people talking about their own lives and I just want to smack’em! Between my own issues and that poor people that are suffering from all over the world.
Perspective is an allusive monster. Not just for me… ultimately it seems everyone.
- Now we are in the Age of Aquarius, the world is going through changes faster than I can keep up, huge changes. I think many American do not even guess???
- Did you know the poles are shifting. The north pole is moving over Syberia and it is said that soon they will completely shift. We (the US) will be the Southern Hemisphere!?!?!?
- The Palestinians Hamas is taking leadership in their country and are at a huge cross roads. Will it be Peace or WW3?
There is so much! The world is changing. President Bush is just the happless sock-puppet in the way … I can’t blame him so much for this shit as I can say… these are the times.
… yeah me ….
I am feeling much better now. Yes, daddy Allan, baby is all better. I am actually going to go to they gym after work and get some exercixe today. I am very happy about that since I have not been able to in almost a week. I have been soooooo sick.
I am also reading the “DaVinci Code” and am halfway through it after a couple days of reading. Very interesting…. so far it is a different than what I expected. I am just lapping it up!
I am about to leave work and am off the next couple nights! Yeah me!
Dead Man Blogging
Still sick… my life sucks. I am dying… somebody toss a daisy on my grave hole…. bwaaaaah!
I am sucking snot, fighting an itchy throat, pooping my pants… boy, am I pretty. Well… at lest I still have 97.5% of my humor. And I am dressed well. When I came in one of the guys yelled at me… he says I am on graveyard shift … I do not have to dress so nice!!! Well, (blush) thanks!
I look smart… grey 3/4 wool sweater, pin striped slacks, camel skin colored leather Steve Madden shoes and my matching Coach belt… smell me! Well, don’t i probably stink like NyQuil and Chloraseptic. Coffee and bad enchilades from the dining room.
At lkeast I am alive… well, for a couple more hours anyway. I am going to hit the bed as soon as I get home again. I tried that yesterday, too. I went right to bed… tossed and turned and tossed and then finally got up. Watched tv, drank some hot cocoa, played with the Poodle-Dog…. the basics. Still could barely sleep. I had already taken a dose of Tylenol Night Time at 8 so I waited til noon to take some NyQuil.
My first born child will be called NyQuila.
Just kidding… this isn’t the Morey Povich show. So, I am now just waiting to be able to go home because I get off in 20 minutes and counting as I type this lovewly tribute to my own fleeting sanity.
One more night to go before my weekend hits! Yeah… And maybe I will be healthy for it?????? Ugh!!!!
xo Lovers! I miss some of my freinds: Ed, Jeffy Jeff, Woody, Keith, Mo and more… 🙁
Business and Getting the Business
I am sick as hell… it all started the other day. I went to a party with Adolfo saying goodbye to his manager; she was a really cool chick. Anyway, this hot guy who works with Adolfo was sick and then… look what I got. At least if I got this hot guy’s cold/flu I could have really earned it! Damn!
I also invested in promoting my restaurant concept for a 3 month position on the web that investors look at. FundingPost.Com is a site I think I advirtised before… but I had a long talk with an guy who is an investor and he pointed out a few holes in my concept which really has me reeling. Not from the point of view of someone who is stubborn enough not to listen, but from a perspective that I have a good idea and I have to get someone to pay attention and believe in it.
www.BlueAngelCafe.com is my restaurant. It’s a great idea! I can make 5.6 million in a year and those are conservative numbers. All I need is 300k to get it going. Can you imagine? Well, I can.
Anyway… I have been updating my cooking site www.halonet.net with new recipes and articles. Check it out if you have time!
Adolfo is home sick now. He got this flu ting starting last night. I think he got it from me… this is an agressive little bug. I felt so bad even my hair hurt last night. Every fiber of my being hurt. I ached and wanted to die!!!!!
But, I feel a lot better now. Anyway…. take care all