jury duty

For 3 days prior to today I have been in hell… serving on Jury duty. Banded with a group of people with a variety of domonating personalities… we left as a hung jury. Almost no-one was willing to budge on their position and in the end I think we looked like a bunch of fools.

The judge was Sally Roehler (something like that) and after jury selection she made a couple comments that tarnished the whole mess… 1. If you make a decision stick to it and do not let anyone sway your inidividual belief, and 2. She estimated this case would be finished in a day, or day in a half….

NOT

The case was this LOSER named Jerome Zemke who was shop lifting at the Rebel Gas Station at Koval and Tropicana. This is a station I pass all the time. Well, he was caught stealing and pulled a knife on the clerks subsequently cutting one of them (scratches but none the less).

We were given the video from inside the store from 4 cameras, holes in the shirt, the knife and a lot of photos.

1. the knife never appeared in any of the videos, just the reaction of the victims and the other customers in the store which was ambiguous to me.

2. the shirt had so much damage in it that it was hard to see that the knife did any damage to it, most of it was worn out….

3. they kept calling this knife a butcher knife, but it was a cheap ass carving knife; it had no fingerprints on it and a partial print that could not be attributed to any of the people involved that was found thrown in the bushes…

4. only wittnesses were 2 victims, and 3 cops…. VICTIM #1: filipino guy who had a hard time with english, but he was very believable and repsonded well to questioning. VICTIM #2 was a total slacker who looked like a fool, he was the one who got jabbed with the knife once in the hand and cut (scratched) across the abdomen. COP#1: Italian Hottie who was a good wittness but he knew almost nothing except he was the one who took the defendant into custody. COP #2: Nice looking black dude but he was a bit foolish because he collected the evidence and gave it all back before it was cataogued except for the knife. CSI EXPERT: Pics of the knife and fingerprinting…. she was a dope. She certainly was no Marge Helgenberger…

Well, 1/3 of the people that were there had a hard time putting the knife in the vitim’s hands, 1/3 could go either way, 1/3 said there was a knife and wanted the guy executed (practically, I am exagerrating). But consider the harshest charge was Attempted Murder with a Deadly Weapon, Burglary, Robbery, and Assualt; all of which with the Deadly Weapon part became something much worse.

As mentioned before, no one would come to a single conclusion. Personal convictions became road blocks. Interresting that the 2 black guys on the case were steadfast against the use of the knife in the commision of the crime????? The old white dudes (me excluded thank you!) were steadfast that he did use the knife. There was definitely bias that people could not come to a middle conclusion with; the burglary and robbery were both felonies.

The judge took us into the court room and told us things we could not know before, that there was a wittness who could not be there that saw the defendant throw the knife. That the defendant had a LONG ASS record of crime in Minnessota!!!!!

He was a shitty guy.

I know he was a shitty guy. White boy, German decendant, looked hispanic (actually) and had gangster tattoos over his stomach, too.

A new trial starts this coming Monday. However, on the way out the defense attourney and the orisecuting attourney were down to talk to all of us and it was fascinating. They were like buddies and helping each other out in the court room. Hell, maybe while waiting they were braiding each other’s hair????? But, they were so very nice!

3 DAYS OF FUCKING SHIT!!!!! BUT!!!!! I found a silver lining. One of the jury panel was a hot paramedic who sat next to me. He would stretch and I could see his tant stomach…. oh yum.

birthday @ FireFly Las Vegas

Last night was my birthday gathering at Firefly. Adolfo made all the arrangements and talked to some or all of my freinds and it was a nice occasion.

Woody was my only friend that showed up besides having gal pal Annebell (felow graduate from Culinary School) also in attendance. I guess you could say this goes along with my previous entry about “friends” and what is important.
I got a Zune from Adolfo. The Zune is a cool device and it works better than an Ipod, but getting content SUCKS!!!!! They donot have any video or movie stuff. It’s awful.. and I have all this content from iTunes that won’t work. So I am trying to decide whether I want to return it or not???? Ugh! I’ll experiment with it.
I found an article that suggests how to move content over…. hmmm?
On other notes: I got a nice Happy BDay from Allan in TX and some notes my mySpace from peeps. It’s nice when people remember. Sam called today and said “howdy” and all… but he did not remember either. He says he wants to come back to Vegas and stay with us.
So, as you can see there is always so much happening here in Lost Wages. Showgirls on every corner and Elvis is the security guard. The police department is all male strippers and hookers are the welcoming committee. ho-hum… ha ha ha

happy birthday to me

Today is my birthday and so far this year is turning out to be one of change. The things I am used to seem different and I feel it inside as well as out. I have been joking around saying that I am turning 36 because the idea of turning 42 is giving me chest pains. Age is not my freind.

The plusses of it all: Adolfo and I seems tobe doing better and better but that is not without its sacrifices; not all that bad though. Too intimate even for the diary… sufice tosay it’s all normal stuff that happens as a relationship progresses.

ANYWAY… now school is starting again in just over a week and I have been a victim of a really bad haircut yesterday!!! I decided I was going to get a new, edgier look, and went to the barber I have been going to for a while. Well, we were talking so much he was not paying attention and literally shaved the wrong part down to nothing and left me with stubble….. oh hell. So, I said buzz the best thinking I would get something more “military” looking than what I wanted; but I got death-camp survivor hair cut. Ugh!

The camera is no where tobe found right now so you’ll have to wait for a piccy.

One of my regrets for the year is how far freinds of mine have drifted. My schedule with school has out greater space between me and people. On the other hand there are people I have been holding on to in my heart that seem to have forgotten me and I feel a great sadness in myheart for it.

When I chose a person as my FRIEND (there is a special sereies of definitions for this word to me), that person is literally carved into my heart. Mikey, Ed, Woody… the tops of the chart who are living (some passed on) who are living their lives and have apparently moved on and forgot me.

There is a class of friends who came into my life and had that status in my heart, but I feel betrayed by them. A lot of my freinds have betrayed my trust and love and I feel pain in my heart each time I think of them; but no names on this list.

I have some freinds that are freinds, but nothing close. They aren’t people I have attached myself very strongly to though I really like them, they have not grafted themselves into my heart.

other freinds are more aquaintences than anything else, but I still enjoy spending time with them.

How does all this fit together? Why am I thinking about this so much? Well, I am thinking it is time to let go of some and move forward with others. Odd that some of the people I value most are seriously geographically distanced…. if that works it’s because of minimal expectations (???) or something like that.

Chippy called me with my Christmas gift. He told me from the heart that he valued my freindship and I really felt very good about that… it was one of the best gifts. He mayhave been drunk? …but it was still very nice.

Another long babbling entry. Thanks for reading if anyone still is????

xo

Our Christmas

X-Mas finally got here in the [redacted]-Valencia Household and we celebrated last night. Pics and gift list below… we had a blast. I have a photo I could not include of Adolfo dunk! Girl can;t handle the champagne.

Adolfo

 
 

    • Diamond and White Gold Pendant
      and Necklace!!!!
  • Shirt and Hat
  • Fashionista T
  • Lots of Chocolate!
  • Wine (for both of us)

 
 

Scott

 

    • Pasta Roller Set
  • Marc Ecko Sweater
  • Belt with Beetle Buckle
    (Way Cool!)
  • Recipt Binder with all of
    my mom’s recipes

 

12/25 was our day and when we got home from work we threw it all together. Dinner was Squab stuffed with homemade stuffing and chopped black truffle inside. Spinach saute and desert was a blueberry Brown Betty… quaint, huh?

Christmas Day

Last night I was cooking for the same client I have for the last 3 years. It was a nice! Adolfo came and helped me on this occasion. This is the second time Adolfo came and assisted and it was awesome. I was trying to play it cool in case they were wierded out over the fact we were homos… but no. Thank goodness it didn’t even come up.

Well, now I am at the Venetnain doing my daily routine again. Almost nobody came intoday. It’s like a ghost town. I am so not in the mood to be here, too.

We’re having a nice dinner tonight. I bought Squab and Black Truffles. Should be really nice when I get home and throw it all together. I’ll take more piccies and share them with you all.

This week is also my birthday… vomit! I’m going to stay in my thirties…. I decided this year. If I lose 2#’s for every year I am in denial I will be a teenager again! Yeah me!

babbling incoherantly

The website is coming along as anyone who might be reading this can see. I’m already disatisfied which means it will change again… soo. I’ll be working on Blue Angel over the coming months as well… making it a pet project for School and more.

HaloNet.Net will evaporate into a closed chapter and possbily into something new. Blue Angel and Halonet will merge and if my restaurant ever comes to life.

Just a few days until Christmas… yeah. Nothing special though. I’m glad to have this time away from school for now. I wish I had more today right now… but words escape me.

Imagine that…

xo4now

counting down b4 xmas

the household seems to slowly return to normal… relatively speaking… as Adolfo is dealing with his mom’s passing. Odly, we still feel her presence and worry about the connectivity of the family. All the siblings have spread out over the country. The cohesiveness of it might have been lost with Rosa.

We only just started any form of Christmas shopping. The main person I bought for was Adolfo, but I managed to get the closest family memebrs something.

Christmas shopping could make a hard-core shopper like me sick. I was exhausted by the time I got home last night. I see so many people doing so much dumb shit. YET… I saw a lot of yummy boys walking around at the same time. Oh my!

On other notes… missing a lot of people. I miss hanging out with certain freinds. Kenny and I took off and I hung around while he shopped for Brian last night. I was cool just hanging out.

Worried about Sam… he is not returning my e-mail and is sitting in the dark somewhere clutching his knees … ugh! I wish I could help him and get him moving in the right direction. I guess it is my fault for buying him a ticket home. It was supposed to be a short trip. BUT, his crackhead freinds in LA are not there to help him at all. ARGH!!!

Missing you Ed. Thought of you last night George from Oz. Chippy!

… I’ll write more later…
….have you seen the updates at www.bookofuriel.com ?

sad inside

This was another hard night here and and blow to Adolfo. His mom suffered either an aneurism or stroke tonight bad enough that she is currently in a coma and is not expected to survive. It rips my heart out for him since she was just here last week staying with us. Please send your love and prayers for them.
He’s currently at the airport getting ready to board a flight home. So, I just got off the phone with him and he is boarding a Southwest Jet. He’s been really strong… it seems like everytime we talk since he found out we start crying. He’s drained dry while I am still stunned. I could not be there for him an I feel awful about it.

I’ll keep you guys bosted, but you can reach him through my mySpace if you want to send him a note or comment. xo

this week

I have been very busy with school and it is hard to believe, but I am very close to finals for this quarter. I am also happy that there is no school until Jan 8th so that means I’ll have about 3 weeks of time to get caught up on movies and work out more.

School and life has made it tought to workout. I feel pulled in several directions. Yet, I am trying to manage my time as best as I can. Unfortunately it is affecting my health! Right now I am fighting a bug and as medicated as I am I am still going to school FT, wroking FT, and doing some of my side business work.

It also goes along with my weight issues. I cannot seem to lose weight and I want to lose about 40#’s. (Chop off my head, huh?) I know it is a matter of disipline. I am willing to try… wanting to, but damn it’s hard. And all these people I know areound me have lost a lot of weight with Weight Watchers of all things!!!! Ugh!

I should be completely sick by Thanksgiving… because I can be. I am cooking a nice meal and will have some guests over. You’ll see pics!!!

xo

My new ride… yeah me!

I bought a new car yesterday…. I was nervous to say anything until the paperwork was finished this afternoon. I am so stoked!!!! It’s a 2007 Element SC and it rides so smooth and it was loaded with some nice schtuff. I drive it every chance I can… but tomorrow I have to go to work and leave the little baby in the damn parking garage.

Adolfo likes it a lot too…. be jelous.

Kenny called it a Lesbian car.

Woody laughed at me so far… saying something to the affect that I lost my mojo.

Fuck you all.. ha ha ha… I love it. It’s the new me… a mojo-less lesbian!