I suck… I forgot to finish editing this. God, I thought I was done… NOT!

I started editing this again and so please excuse the rough spots.

The trip out of Las Vegas was not looking good at first. US Airways is the single worst airline I have ever flown on and I’ve flown! The flight was scheduled to leave at 11:30 pm and fly all night into Florida. With 2 broken planes later we finally left before 3:00 am and sat around the terminal. A good looking guy was flirting with me… he was good looking and had lovely eyes… but as sweet as that was let’s be real. It was entertaining at least.

So we arrived on the island by middle day in a plane that was two people wide. LITERALLY! So here are a few snaps!

1.On the last plane to the Island
2. From the plane over Florida
3. From my room
4. Me and gal Cheryl having a light dinner and the 1st of 3 cocktails each. Good suggestion Ken!

Leaving tonight for the Bahamas and am feeling a lot of anxiety about the whole thing. I am going with a whole bunch of heterosexuals and they are usually … well, they walk to their own beat. ugh, heteros!

Breeders!

Tom will be staying with a neighbor because my planned babysitter flaked on me. It sucks when someone you think you can lean on – who has leaned on you in the past – proves you wrong. Man it sucks when people hurt you.

People always fuck it up. Friends are so temporary. People always hurt you. FUCK!

IF ANYONE is reading this at all… how do you like the changes? I am not completely finished yet. I want to add a menu at the top.

Meanwhile, Most of my web sites are now updated and all that leaves are my dad’s and my cooking sites. I just finished one for a local non-profit. You can see it on Achtung. Go to my web site section.

I’m too tired to thing about this much more… good fucking night I have a lot to do in the next two weeks.

I have now been single again for a year. Can’t say the experience has been rewarding… no not in the least. I am pretty sure if I had not met Adolfo when I did and that we had not been together before that it is likely I might not have met anyone here. The faults of guys seem magnified here. Men are always looking for something better. Men are afraid of commitment. Men play games and delude themselves and the people who care about them.

SOUNDS REALLY JADED, HUH???

Maybe it is, but I keep holding on to hope. JUST meeting someone you can feel close to and stand next to and know that person has your back is such a big deal when that person comes along. Call him friend or lover, but both in one is awesome. In Vegas I want to meet someone like that.

Guys here are either whores, work-a-holics, or whores. I know a guy here who has been with his BF for years and I am fairly certain they are in the .0001% that are ACTUALLY monogamous. But damn if to look at them if they aren’t the most boring and dorky looky guys you have ever seen in your life…

Wonder why I have the jaded hearth on the web site now??? ha ha ha

I’m not really too jaded… and this is not a sour-puss’ rant. This is just a bitch session.

Yes, I miss Adolfo. But in some ways we were really wrong for each other and in other ways we were a great fit. But a year is gone now of being apart and I am now okay. I took a while to walk on my own… seems to always take about a year.

I met a guy in Portland (refer to last summer’s entries) that I fell for… but that was wrong too and so was he. God, what an idiot he was.

I met a guy on Facebook I think is way cool, but he lives in Boston.

I don’t have time for anyone – in reality – but that does not seem to be stopping me. from looking… I’m just a guy looking for another cool guy.

The end of the school quarter is coming like a freight train and so is summer. I have the benefit of a lot of things happening in June. I go on vacation in the beginning of June and then 1/2 way through it I get 1 month off from school. One should also mention I am not that far away from this degree, too. Less than a year to go and ticking… heavy sigh.

Oh, btw Indiana Jones sucks.

So I cam home last night and saw this. The day was the hottest of the year so far. 106! Holy hell!!!.. so to speak. If these melted any more I would have had problems. JINKIES!!!!

My dad had a heart attack that could have really killed him last Saturday. Thankfully he is okay. There have been a few things that make me look at my parents differently. They seem so mortal suddenly. What will happen when they are gone?