Well, with the Burning Man event a month away there is a lot of heat building on the internet with communications.
Just some of the resources I have been connecting with out there!!!!
My new word for Now to September – simplify
I’d like to say I am done carrying around a lot of baggage in this world. I have stuff that goes back to Adolfo – back to Brian – back to Long Beach. There is this delusion I was building while I was with Adolfo and an idealism that never came to be. I wanted what the Jones’ had – I wanted what I thought was what amde life livable. So – I have a lot of shit.
Time to clean house – spiritually and physically.
Done – done – done.
Burning man has been twittering about stuff going on and BurningMan.com has been updated. Everyone is gearing up for the big one – especially as we seem to be getting closer to opening day. Almost a month away!
News – If you plan on flying into Reno and need to catch the buss to BRC you had better get on it now. Sold out for the first 2 days. The bus has seats open for Wednesday at this point.
More News – BM will be selling tickets at the gate. This is something they had said they would not do, but because of low ticket sales it looks like they are opening that option up.
Find more information about this on http://www.twitter.com/lvburners.
I am so excited about this event and am counting down the days. Use comments below to add your 2cents~!
Seems like such a long week. Kaidy was here for the first part of it and it was really nice having him here. I hope I did not bore him too much, but we seemed to do some nice things. Got some pool time in – as usual – and made a couple of really nice dinners.
Other than that, I am fretting over some of this medication I am taking right now. The side effects are a mish-mash of pluses and minuses. Not to go into too much detail, because I would rather not share too much info, that it makes sleeping somewhat difficult. Yet I manage to get what I need.
Last night was odd. Given the fire here in the apartment yesterday, too, it was not all that bad. They replaced the water heater right away. I showed pictures of the mess on Facebook.
Other than that… I am so fed up of this unemployment. But the benefits of it are driving me insane. I am not getting enough work done and this seems to be a perfect time to get some personal studying achieved. I want to read more on some industry related subjects.
Oh crap, I need to do something. -sigh
Just thought I would make a note. This year is passing slowly… yet one of my big milestones for the year is coming up… yes – Burning Man. I am looking ahead at the event coming in 41 days and wondering… what then?
But with all the stuff going on right now… a distinct lack of income, over committed social life, a dog that keeps getting hurt, and a sudden realization that I have too much shit in my apartment… ugh.
I have been examining my mortality again, too. I should be getting back my blood tests this week from my exam at the VA a week ago. I have to imagine that if there was anything important in the tests they would certainly have called me before today. I took these blood tests almost a month ago…? right?
So… life is decent. I am blessed – I know. I find myself worrying about my mom some times and thinking about my father (yes, I went on quite a rant about him a few times in the life of this diary). But – I miss the good side of him. My family ties are sometimes lost… but I found out 2 of my cousins are getting married within a couple weeks of each other… both are cool cousins.
All of my cousins are cool, ‘cept the one meth-head. My cousin Leah is such a cutie and she has such a beautiful kid. ALL my family has SUCH good looking kids. My biological sister has some beautiful kids! Same with cousin Raechel!
I am so jealous… guess that is part of my own mortality. I wanted kids so bad myself. One son. I would have been very happy with a kid. But I am so immature and so irresponsible to have a kid. I think I’d make a good dad. Right?
sigh
The new map of BRC with the newly resized center camp has been released:
click here
It shows the names of the streets this year and where approximitely where everyone will be. I can see they have the reserved areas for the theme camps. Where will Sin City be????
Can’t wait to find out!
It’s been a wierd week and I am trying to review my life situation and determine where I need to go and what sacrifices I need to make. It’s frustrating as I struffle to make ends meet – like everyone else in this country – and make plans to shed a lot of the crap I have collected.
I feel like a big snowball. I look into this walkin closet I have and though I have cleaned out a lot of stuff I have a ton of more junk – papers – and whatvers I got through my last 2 relationships floating around.
Adolfo and I were mad-shoppers and even when I was with Brian I still collected a lot of crap. I still have papers going back more than a decade from power bills and this-n-that that just needs to go. I plan on sacrificing some of it ceramoniously to the Man. How about them apples… what do I mean? See the link at the top in the shape of THE MAN.
last night was another LVBurner beach meetup. It was small, which is cool, but amazing. Thank God that Damain was there with his kit and played some awesome music.
I find myself seduced. I’ve been involved with this burner community for less than a year and my enthusiasm is still quite high. I got an email from someone today trying to reach me off one of the boards I post to with all kinds of links to their camp on the playa… it’s called Moonbow camp. I am pretty impressed with their pictures and general setup.
It’s cool how much this thing grows, but is it just another drug. ha ha ha… not so melodeamatic. People who want to explore this thing need to do it on their own terms. People who define it before exploring it deep enough will never know this. I will complete my journey in less than 60 days.
I’m still figuring a lot of things out…….
I felt like this whole day was different. We’re past that crazy period after the full moon – and it’s a f’d up period – but now there is renewed energy in the cosmos. It’s a lunar thing… follow it and you might be surprised.
I digress. Without getting into detail I have been suffering from a headache almost all day, but my energy level has been peaked. I have felt pretty comfy in my own skin. It’s all pretty good.
That b.s. I went through with M* is in the past, but I have some things belonging to him here in the house I want to get back as soon as possible. Giving him the boot has put a crimp in some of my plans – all Burning Man related (see my other blog for BM details).
I really want to go to this one event in SD (Burners without Borders) that is a fund raiser, but I could not possibly travel with him now. He is part of the package if I go with my crew. He is also on the outs for traveling with me to Burning Man. Sucks!
Meanwhile, I am now worried I will not be able to sleep tonight. I had trouble last night sleeping. It was so wierd. I have been sleeping fairly soundly recently – also wierd. So, I took a melatonin and just finished a warm milk with a drop of madagascar vanilla… yum yum yum. No sugar or caffeine… thank you.
Speaking of which I really need to stop drinking so much milk… it’s just not good for me… ugh. Okay, this is boiling down to a ramble. cya