Author Archive: scott.kay

Things that matter

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  1. Being able to look someone in the eye
  2. Being able to hug someone at any time
  3. Being able to offer a helping hand
  4. Being able to accept a helping hand
  5. Supporting your family and friends when you can
  6. Sharing love and friendship with another
  7. Getting a kiss from someone awesome
  8. Coming home to peace and quiet
  9. Being able to float in a nice pool on a hot day
  10. Just chillin’ out with friends

Why am I making lists these days? Just taking inventory I guess. As I get closer to Burning Man it is time to take on inventory again for the next step in life.
Again, I am feeling a tremendous need to get the hell out of Las Vegas. I feel like I have done and experienced everything possible here. Though I have met some really amazing people here … the calling is pulling me away – but to where?
Ever just feel stuck? Ever just feel like your feet are stick in mud and just raising your foot is really really hard. That’s me.
Can;t post on Facebook anymore because too many people are seeing it and commenting on it. Just this last month, so many people have told me how sad I look. I saw this fat, older dude sitting on a bench in his underwear at the gym staring into the wall like he had nothing to live for – that for the grace of God goes I.
I project a lot. I try seeing through other people’s eyes and rarely is it good for me. Meps.

New Chaps

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I made a pair of chaps this week.. this is my first pictures of them… not sure … thought my ass was prettier.

Monotropolis is Burning

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My planned art project has been falling apart since its inception and it’s been a long slow disintegration. Last night, the framework I built for it was actually stolen. 300$ worth of material gone.

So, in my head I am trying to think of a Plan D (yes, that many). My partner on this project bailed early on, if he was ever really invested. 3 fund raising attempts have been a disaster.

If you are willing to throw some cash at me www.art23design.com for donations if you’re feeling it. HA HA HA

All the donations I have had were swallowed up faster than the money landed in my hands.

Down now, not out. Maybe the universe is just saying… not this year?

10 Things…

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10 Things I love about Vegas

  1. Pools on hot days
  2. The comfort and lack of agendas from fellow burners
  3. Sunset
  4. Moon rise
  5. The hills surrounding the city during sunset and dusk
  6. … hmmm, I’m stuck. How long can one stare at the screen trying to fill in the rest of this list. I just whipped out the 10 things I hate about Vegas.

When the wrong thing is easier that the right thing it is time for an evaluation.

10 Things…

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10 things I hate about Vegas

  1. That people are routinely unreliable, flaky, and ambivalent
  2. That people really exist in their own micro-verse in spite of words that falsely portray otherwise
  3. That MPD is lazy, corrupt and civically irresponsible in my opinion
  4. That it is so unfriendly to pets
  5. That it is so hard for people on one side of town don’t connect to the people on the other side of town – “it’s too far” – it’s 20 minutes to drive almost anywhere in town!
  6. That dating here here has been so hard
  7. That greed and indulgence and dependence or so easy to find
  8. That unemployment is so high
  9. That I find it hard to believe in anyone here – politically, community, heroically
  10. That I personally have lived the life of a phoenix so many times and am looking forward to my next rebirth

There will be a few more lists while I think about my own accountability. Getting the negatives out first seemed to be the way to start.

Funday Friday

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So it begins… I feel like there is a dark cloud following me around again. It is only because I have taken so much on my shoulders once again and am very fearful that the car is going to finally spin off the track. Unemployment ended last week and getting the federal extension is proving to be difficult.
The state unemployment department has a phone number that is constantly busy. Considering we have unemployment that has actually passed Detroit, things in this shit hole city are not going to improve. There are signs everywhere that it is going to die here. It cannot sustain.
The heat is unbearable in summer for the most part. Lake Meade is dropping faster than you could ever imagine. Fires burning out the historical parts of the city. Layoffs by the hundreds.
That’s just some of it. I know there is hardly a place in the country that is surviving this nutty economy and a fucked up government that is retarded from being unable to make things better. Capitalism is a self devouring serpent. The serpents body wriggles and crushes all those around it. I may well be forced to sacrifice a lot just to survive… and I ain’t got a lot to sacrifice.
It’s not like I am a virgin … right.

Good Morning Las Vegas

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Fuck you.
Fuck you and the donkey you rode in on.
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Nevermind… so  woke up this morning  with this as my facebook thing: “…is feeling renewed and blessed… for some reason. Maybe I’m going all Brittney bi-polar goofy nut. It was bound to happen.” I did really wake up feeling really positive and energized this morning.
It really was a good day over all, but through the evening I just kinda started crashing and feeling a little shitzky. Today was a day to get back on track with a few things and finish up some of my other projects. I am also doing a lot of thinking about where I am right now as well as where I need to be in the coming months.
Things have not been working they way they are supposed to be working. I should have a job right now and I shold be working and earning some money. But none of that is coming my way. Today the news reported the unemployment numbers when up another 1/2 percent. Vegas is dying.
I am looking for new directions and new distinations, but not fully wrapped around any ideas. I think about Austin, Reno, and San Francisco a lot. Delaware is a good place, I am told, but I am not sure where the world is calling me to.
Last night was a good night with friends, who are moving soon to Houston. We floated around the pool til eleven at night… my goodness what a day it was. It was so pleasant just being there with people I enjoyed… no attitudes no b.s. and plenty of naked swimming… nice.
Today started off very practical with some house cleaning, fresh sheets for the bed, and some business with a potential new client. Then it was off for errands and I came home a little crashed out. So, my energy was a little wobbly for the rest of the evening. I got frustrated while sewing unlike I usually did, but finally gave in just a few minutes ago.
No, this entry is not saying a lot.
Nope, don;t care. So – fuck you.

Good Morning Me

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Life takes some odd turns. While trying to figure out my ups from my downs I found something in the universe today that made me feel kinda good. Is it faith that things can be better; the eternal optimist. Or is it that for a few minutes things were bad, then they got better, and continued to be better?
Fuckit… it’s what the universe dealt. I went somewhere today looking for something that was no longer there; Blue Moon Vegas  is running itself into the ground. In my frustration I went to the Luxor pool and felt comfortable. Then I went to Perry & Alex place and stayed the rest of the afternoon onto the evening… and it was good. Better than plan a.
But tomorrow being Monday… tomorrow another new week of exploration… hopefully new eyes… new heart.

My Art Project

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So, the funding for my art project seems to be slipping away from me. I am trying to figure out a way of making it happen in-spite of a lack of funds. My 2 fund raiser were fund losers. So, I need to stop this whole nonsense of throwing a party in the hope of raising money.

My Kickstarter link has 2 backers and it is a total of 150$ which is a long way from 2500$ … I have this hulk of metal in my carport waiting to be finished and it’s just so expensive for the remaining elements.

The Night Version:

The Day Version:

More tomorrow… getting sleepy.

Planning again?

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It seems that September is a time of the year where I experience a lot of changes in the bad habit that is my life. Right now I am looking ahead, able to anticipate certain things, but gamble on others.
I am so sick of not having a job. I have plenty of things to do. I can make some cash here and there, but it’s pennies compared to where I think I should be in life right now. However, there were a lot of expectations I was having about my success and career that are clearly out of focus and getting further away.
I am a good artist, designer, organizer, coordinator and more. I am a kick ass cook and I care about everything I do. But what does that add up to?
My freaking God, I have 2 degrees from an art school. I walked away from the school improved, but so not worth the money. The Art Institute of Las Vegas is thievery. Not my culinary program though, because there WAS a great chef at the helm back then. Since then I have not seen much of any quality coming out of that school. Considering the President is buying expensive gifts for employees and teachers are either doing coke in the parking lot or banging students…. I mean come on. You are better off going to UNLV or CSN for Gods sake. It’s half the cost or better.
So… on another subject… my art project funding is getting further and further away. I have it posted on www.art23design.com and Kickstarter.Com; it is also featured on Burning Man.Com. How am I failing so bad at this. I really really want to bring this project to the playa… bummed if it does not happen.
Troubles have been following me a lot lately and as usual it’s money related. I must be cursed. Must be. Ugh.