Before my sleeping pill starts kicking in, I better get this written. About last night’s entry about Adolfo. I got a couple comments in e-mail about it already and I want to continue. You see, this year I did some inner relfection and realized that I spent a lot of time focused on the future […]

Since my last submission, I am nearly 100% healed. My ASS is working perfectly now and no more limping. My toe is nearly to it’s natural color as well. If I am not careful, I may be ahealthy person soon. It is unfortunate I have been unable to make it to the gym with my […]

I need sympathy. Well, I really need some help. I feel like one of those pathetic, sad, destraught people who can barely function. You see, Friday night while I was in San Francisco I hurt something and since then it has gradually become worse. I thought I pulled a muscle? This morning I started to […]

I am writing after having gone to bed. I got back up because I am too wound up to sleep. So, I have some tea on the stove waiting to brew and a nibble of cranberry -orange bread waiting to go with it. This has been a tough week and it is only Tuesday. The […]

What a day? I feel that I should have endless money available for myself and that if anyone looks at me cross eyed I get to kick their ass. Wouldn’t that be the best!?!?!?! Today was a mixture of surprises and defeats. Yet I am here while Adolfo is sleeping pleasantly sleeping in the very […]

I am realizing that I feel and think about some things different lately. I am constantly under pressure to make ends meet and find myself coming up short a lot. I hope life does not continue this way until the day I drop dead???? I’m at heart attack age and damn I should have had […]

So…. well, it has been a while since i wrote in my diary. I have barely paid any attention to anybody as well. What a selfish, no good bastard I am! I have been keeping very busy with the new job, dating Adolfo, and trying to keep life somewhat normal here. In my work I […]

I have not made very many serious diary entries in a while. Probably because I have been so wound up in life here in Las Vegas. I keep trying to do ALL the things I think I should SHOULD be doing and in the end end up doing only a small amount of what actually […]

So, what is going on? As usual I am working til late in the evening on the variety of projects I have taken on in my life. I simply wish they were providing more money. At least I have been able to be a little more social lately as well. I have left AIM open […]

As you may have seen on the cover page, I am feeling a little distressed. Noah has been very sweet about it and has tried to be consoling. He said that I helped him in the past, but I feel like I have been less than helpful. It’s because Noah talks to me and Mikey […]