This has been a month of many changes. I have had to make a lot of changes inside my way of thinking as well as my outlook. As you may have read previously, I decided to recind my move to Seattle. I decided there were a lot of benefits to staying here in Nevada that I had to really consider though I wanted to live on the coast.

First off, NOT moving to Seattle meant I lost out on an important gig I wanted. But a problem for me was making that leap of faith. The guy I would have been working for was a nice guy, but maybe too sensative for my way of thinking and acting. I’m not the most PC person in the world.

Since this month began we have faced some other changes and even death. Adolfo’s freind officially committed suicide and was burried by family who may have been more interested in his life insurance than his peace. A freind of mine lost her child yesterday; she was 4 months pregnant. I am very sad for her inside, because I know she really wanted the baby.

It’s ties like these and more that can keep us here. Plus, there are no state income tax. We can earn money to live here and live at a standard we have becme accostom to. I have started looking at buying a home here. Me.. yes.. me.

No Allan, this does not get you off the hook. I should probably have never moved here to begin with, but look at all it’s paid off… I guess I cannot complain. I guess I have to smell the roses and see what I do have and see how I can make the best out of it.

I still want to move on. I still want to expand. I want to explore the world. I want to explore life… but for right now I am settling for mediocrity and security. ho-hum…